drop by drop

i am truly grateful

to all you guys

little things you did

little words you said

make my day

i thank you

many thanks to 24/07

thanks,

for waiting for me;

thanks,

for forgiving me;

thanks,

for advising me;

thanks,

for so many things

i choose to believe

because your eyes make me to do so.

i treasure......

and

to be life-long cherished :D

1:36 AM

DayDreaming

its not for building up hopes

but collapsing the future

i'v always remebered

that day

that noon

that minutes & seconds

and

that words you said.

no matter what

no matter how long the time has passed

the impact remains

and im always afraid.




being a good girl

&

be strong.




Am i a nerd?

maybe.

or

maybe not.

up to you

i just want to be

myself,

the

used-to-be-me.

Labels: lOve is colour-blind

[ this is how it all started* ]

Monday, October 08, 2007
3:12 AM

do not forgive me

do not care for me

bear with me for just a little more

and then

leave me alone.

i can't be saved

so dun ever try it;

save your time

for other

more worthwhile stuffs

i will feel better

afterall, your life is not mine,

because

i don't feel grateful to all those;

because

i am a cold-blooded one.

i have no wish to flag up my history

just walk away from me

dun ever look back.

so pathetic.

idiotically pathetic.

smiles??

i dislike it.

why am i smiling

when my heart is aching like hell??

i just simply

pray

for a peace.

you have no idea

on how hard my life is right now.

i say it is hard,

i mean it,

but you will never experience it

slow?!

yes we are,

freaking slow.

and so unfortunate

clash with my pathetic period of life.

is it a disaster?

or gifted by God?

Labels: Tsunami

[ this is how it all started* ]

Sunday, October 07, 2007
2:54 AM

less smile for me

less care for you

i am a cold-blooded animal

staring at the air

in a cold-blooded version;

sick of doing all these

praying for a disappearance

and

coming back

with an amazing outlook;

more and more people getting to know it

but less and less people understand it

so

let it hibernating

for just a century

we

wait ,

and

see.

i say it,

i mean it.

i hate explaining "i mean it" even when i apologizing.

if you got a chance to read here, just wish you could understand.

_________________________________

i told you that you are good

because i believe that you are not bad

you eyes tell

_________________________________

and what's my weaknesses??

1. im scared of being shouted at,

it freaks me out

and makes me tear

2. you think im joking

when i seriously mean something

it brings up my hatred

once the gap is formed in between,

its hard to close it again

you say being harsh is good?

sorry not for me.

if i got my reason

if you don't understand

too bad then,

cold-war begins

until the next ice age.

sorry

but i'v already told you.

you think you are mature??

you think you are being considerate??

oh please, if you are,

i won't be here nagging at you already.

when i saw the msg,

it shaked my heart,

and bring me a surge of

jumping down from the train.

because

you

do NOT understand.

you will NEVER understand.



P.S i refuse to listen, asking for help, answering your questions
i will do my part.

so leave me alone.
for goodness sick.

am i happy?
no im not,
im just trying to be......


the used-to-be-me :(









if you read this, then

i wanna

thank you :)

Labels: Cold-Blooded

[ this is how it all started* ]

Thursday, October 04, 2007
2:10 PM

fake

freaking fake

fishy faking

i hate * being fake

it makes me feel disappointed & hopeless

the reality is still breaking

friends??!!

troubled!!??

[ this is how it all started* ]

Tuesday, October 02, 2007
1:40 PM

feeling demoralised

and yet, still afraid of asking for help

such a idiot.

life goes on

here it comes.

____________________________________

if everyone else knows it except for me

then don't let me know it forever

will be better, maybe.

seeing you frowning is just as bad as 911

so, never mind

just let it go

you won't care, will you?


____________________________________

Labels: In the world of 16:9, there are always thousands of possibilities per second.

[ this is how it all started* ]

Sunday, September 30, 2007
5:13 PM

if you get hurt in your world,

come to my world,

i will give you my hugs.

and last thing to remember,

never tell me you love me :((

[ this is how it all started* ]


1:34 PM

my sixth sense tells me that something going to happen

well.....it's not within my control

so i just got to get ready for~~~~

never mind, it's your choice

so

you decide.

woke up in early afternoon today as these few days have been doing OT till 2..

i had a really bad dream yesterday, and i cried throughout my dream,

with his presence.

it was really bad and so bitter

and i almost died.

well

one more month to go,

and u will not seeing me for a long time i think.

i played with them as we are really good friends,

and i like to have fun with them.

it's good to make people around you happy anyway.

but that doesn't mean im childish.

im just trying to hide my secrets

which nobody knows.

I know all of these,

you will never care.

It's okay,

take care yourself, and the one you love at least.


~be strong & smile~

[ this is how it all started* ]

Friday, September 28, 2007
3:00 AM

what if you fell for someone living in another world??
what if he just keep ignoring you??
what if im being oversensitive??
what if we are just friends??

im scared, to loss you,

either as my friend, or ~~~

i didnt regret, just heartbroken occasionally.

trying to go into your world,
is like
trying to take one step to reach north pole from south pole;

is like
waiting for the rain, in the desert;

as i
have no right to break the rule.

[ this is how it all started* ]

Wednesday, September 26, 2007
11:30 PM

tonight

the moonlight

is extremely bright

and

beautiful.

I wonder

what the shadow on the left part of the moon is??

wonder

still wonder

and

wondering :)

god bless i will pass my promos,

im studying overnight tonight

for many reasons

i just don't want to give up

on anything

or maybe something.

i wish to be a girl

who really chases after her dream,

i mean the real dream

but not daydreaming

like what i am doing nowadays

i, silly girl.

so stop being silly,

the heart needs to be filled

by something meaningful, achieving

bitter or sweet.....it doesn't matter.

don't make the dream in your heart empty.

and do not care about what others think.

it's easy to say, but hard to do.

so

challenge yourself, and do it.

show them you can do it.

show them you are someone.

i got to create the miracle myself

but not waiting for it to happen on me.

well.....

show yourself that you are a determined one.

and never ever make yourself feel sorry,

for anything.

today, it's not too late, girl.



P.S i will be using proper english to blog starts from today :D


hang on


and

do not be afraid :D

[ this is how it all started* ]

Tuesday, September 25, 2007
11:17 PM

dreaming of~~~~~

i wanna go to Korean....:D
haha

promos started today, i feel alright although i know im going to fail....
well


cheer up :)

[ this is how it all started* ]

Monday, September 24, 2007
9:44 PM

weird stuffs continue disturbing me......
i dunno how come i just throw away my FAVOURITE korean dining culteries after eating my dinner....well i accidentally left them inside the plastic bag, and forgot to take them out...i cant believe i will forget...damn SHIT!!!
and im like

having an aim, but living aimlessly.
having a dream, but dunno how to achieve.
having a desire, but just cant ~~~~


well.....nt giving up, just "pause" a second,

n

think.


why do people study computing?

cuz i have troubles studying them.
no matter how hard i try to rmb them,
theu just slip out of my mind.
guess computing is really not my cup of tea.

i dun wish to go back to the past,
as they are impossible,
and


the memories are too sweet to be spoiled.

let them remain,

and

im trying hard

to create another miracle :)








P.S my promos starting tomorrow, and
i just feel like dying...

[ this is how it all started* ]

Friday, September 21, 2007
7:28 PM

things keep going crazy, and they are freaking freaking, freaking scary....and i can't differentiate which is reality and dreams...Oh my goSHHHHHhhhhhhh!! what the hell is happening...JESUS!!


P.S I lost my house key today! JesUS!!

[ this is how it all started* ]

Wednesday, September 19, 2007
11:32 PM

i took a wrong bus again!!
well i seriously dunno wat is going on recently, like many things weird have been kept happening....
like the bus i took today, i saw it was 12!! but slowly slowly it drove to the other way.....oh well, luckily it drove me back to bedok at least.....never mind!


but still



im worried!





well...today i heard something when sitting on the bus, and this sentence just caught my sttention------a good leader leads by examples>>


i used to be a good one, but that was PAST!! so nothing to be proud of !!
not now.....sadly :( i have to admit the fact that im a really lousy leader....with poor self- discipline.....well i guess im just temporarily trapped inside a vicious cycle, and im trying so hard to get myself out of it. dun really wanna say much about it.....

thr are so many things keep running through my minds, and they make me lost, LOST....

guess today will be a long post......

im not good

though im smiling....truly, smile, is to hide the pains....that's so fake. but who wanna expose their own weaknesses anyway.

whenever i sleep, thr is just this feeling disturbing me that when am i going to wake up again?
im like dying while sleeping, well tis is nt a joke. the feeling of dying freak me out all the time, and im scare of go to sleep. but

im too tired.

whatever moments coming to me now will nt be easy....nobody can imagine
so i guess u also wont be understand.

but just pray that i will live through it, peacefully at least.

pray the lord :)

moments of loss are nt that bad actually, im trying to loss sth which seems to be important to me.....

put salts onto the wounds, that is how my heart feels....

guess after this year,

i will be stronger.....

mentally torturing is millions worse than physically.

so dun ever take the risk to try it, at least i dun wanna try it for the second time.

honestly, im hiding all those away from my parents, nt making them worried as they will be greatly shocke upon hearing all those...i will bear with them alone

my spirit is yelling: i wanna survive through, survive and survive....

looking at the world at this angle may not be the best,
neither is the worst.

so be positive, and

never give up wat you suppose to get/have.

jia you :)

[ this is how it all started* ]

Sunday, September 16, 2007
3:21 PM

Time likes the flowing water

take away my happiness and sadness

the only thing is left for me

is

memory.

People might say

the night sky with colourful firework

is the most beautiful one.

In my eyes

the sky with your love

is the tenderest

and

most touching one.

[ this is how it all started* ]

Tuesday, September 11, 2007
8:09 PM

today, 9/11, an alerting number that strikes our heart whenever we mention it. So just wanna pray for the 2974 victims excluding 19 hijackers, that may peace and love stay with you forever, and may our mighty lord shower grace over you always. God bless you, the world loves you!


ok...now its for my toay's post.
recently exhaused over many things so dun really have mood to upate until i saw this news when i surfing the net, and sudenly realise todae is 9/11. Six years have passed, many things changed, many others remain still. I cant stop myself from being emoing as life is really unpredicable and..........wat's left in the end??


I. pray.............

[ this is how it all started* ]

Tuesday, August 21, 2007
11:13 PM

well....frankly speaking...im extra-ordinary emo recently...for a lot of reasons.. please do not ask me why or wat happen, cuz i dunno how to tell and also wat to tell. so...i can only keep them to myself, and waiting for them to be buried as time passes by, hopefully.

for right now, the only goal is to pass my promos...nth else, really nthing.....
my heart, it is so pain until i hav no feeling of crying or shouting out.
it's painful,
but i must endure.

therefore to all my friends, please pardon me, and forgive me if i sort of neglect you or not talking to you, i have no mean to do that, after this period of time, i will be fine, really.

i also thank all(you guys) for nt forgetting me, and still being really nice and friendly to me.
hope you guys could feel the feeling of me saying "thank you".

i mean it. :)

so hope,god bless you & me.
lord i pray that you could give me the strength,
shower me with wisdom, and the power of self-discipline.

i do not wish to disappoint anyone but yet im too weak to say that.
im like a tree without its roots,
a flower without its stem,
too fragile to touch,
yet to be protected by nothing.

i couldn't accept,
same for giving out,
i'm nothing....









at all.













i went to gaze the stars just now,
staring at the same sky,
looking at the same stars,
the 2 totally different feelings,
and im heartbroken.

wish i could endure...
and walk through them eventually.

im sick still....
physically,
and
mentally :(

[ this is how it all started* ]

Sunday, August 19, 2007
10:06 AM

isolate myself apart
soaked among the silence
i wish for an eternalty

its early though
i cant promise to wait
satisfied of just being friends


smile more
you are charming
in a unique way




----------------------------------------------------------------
----------------------------------------------------------------

its okay
if
im childish
to you.

Thanks to you :)

[ this is how it all started* ]

Saturday, August 18, 2007
1:04 AM

sick. middle ear imbalance caused the world around me is turning all the time.
but
never mind, at least im feeling much better now.

todae was absent from sku, went to science centre in the afternoon cuz staying at home made me feel even more sicko. haha

i did computing in the morning...arrays and functions drove me crazy...so i wanted an escape. haha

i reached sc by around 4, it was fun, and i was truly enjoyin it. i like the moments which im alone, and appreciate everything around me silently, or explore sth im interested in without others' disturbance. well that doesn't mean im anti-social ok?! haha

SC is having an exhibition about the 7000 history of China, and an new series of exhibition abt info com technology.
you cant afford to miss them. so go SC if u r free...its worthwhile...

haha actually wanna stay on till 7 plus den go watch stargazing cuz SC having Stargazing section on every friday evening....but cannot wait for that long le as SC is closing at 6, and i gt nthin to do in between 6 to 7 plus..so eventuallly made my way to sembawnag to go play with my doggies...yeah!!

I MIss junior, QQ....haha
todae my legs kena a lot scraches....cuz of them..haha but never mind...i still love them always...
well...got to send them to bathe tml cuz they r really smelly todae...haha jus kidding!!
stayed on till 10 .30, den got to heading back home...i took 969 to tempinese...den 38 back to bedok...

well...todae i travelled the whole sg, bedok>>Jurong east>>Sembawang>>Tempinese>>bedok!!

tiring...and time now its 1.35am...im tired..
i still gt to help out my church's musical performance tis sunday, and therefore have to cancel my captain's ball match on sunday with nat!! WTH!!

sorry nat :(

okay...

haha bye bye and good night :D

[ this is how it all started* ]

Wednesday, August 15, 2007
6:06 PM

i lost my friendster account, well there is something wrong with my profile, and i cant view it. damn!! but nvm, at least i still have my beautiful blog over here. I love my blog as it records all my memories....haha love it.

well.....its too early, true.....so i shall not think all these right now. thanks to you.....hope u r happy, still the same....im enjoyin of workin at marriott....ha i love it.

[ this is how it all started* ]

Tuesday, August 14, 2007
8:08 PM

i dunno when it all started, why and how it has been going on, its not a crash, neither im insane, its jus a kinda of feeling that i wanna give u & make u feel happy...wish that ur life is not always surrounded by tiredness, and heavy responsibilities. At moments you could laugh happily without any worries. Though we both leading a different life, i wont force u in anyway, jus wish u to know that no matter wat u doing, u r always blessed!

u r working now, well.....hope the function has been running smoothly...hah :P

though i guess u may never see this post, still wanna say that----i love to see ur smiles...

[ this is how it all started* ]

Sunday, August 12, 2007
7:18 PM

i wish i could,although it seems to be facing many difficulties......but stil, i just somehow wanna say this out, afterall it's the 1st time i did this....

im scared of being hurt, and i always have no confidence in this.....i feel lost when encountering all these as i have no idea how to handle them so that nobody will gets hurt. i just feel so pain....

being able to be thr when u r in need, sharing ur troubles when u frown, although i cannot do much for you right now....i just dun wanna see u so tired! hoping u r enjoyin ur life no matter what u r doing....and simply be happy...

n most importantly, im really scared of being avoided, esp by those ppl i love so much...haiz...still rmb, got one time when i was in sec 3, a guy who use to be very close to me suddenly isolate me so far away,that one week was the saddest week i ever experienced....well....e reason was because he had some problems in his relationship,n the gal was jealous of him being close with me....well that sounds childish,undeniably. but i still can't forget..that feeling of being ignored!

honestly im scare of it....
haiyaa...y am i so emo todae?!

well....nvm....be strong :D

[ this is how it all started* ]

Tuesday, August 07, 2007
4:00 PM

i.......at times, miss those time i spent with you, but somehow i know that it may be impossible for us to continue.....however, i still wanna prolong the memory, i wanna bring joys to you, and wanna know u more though the time is so short....

i will treasure it if u give me the chance....

bearing all these pains, trying to hide my joys....telling myself that i must be strong, i, will walk through them with the encouragement u'v given me.....

i dun have confidence still :(

[ this is how it all started* ]

Wednesday, August 01, 2007
8:50 PM

i wanna pass my promos....i shouldn't never give up....for them, for myself....be strong and work hard through this period, everything will be alright. Im grateful for being a member of 24/07, and got a life chance to meet all those great people in this class. therefore...

i treasure them a lot....
i cherish the friendships we all build amgst one another.....
and

all of those...i love my daddy and mummy the most! yes..undeniably...

well diff ppl having diff past, present, and future....
individual's experience is all uncomparable...and extremely unique....

so im learning to enjoy my life, listening and enjoy other ppl's life as well....
i used to be so talkative..but no longer now...

maybe a bit negatively, i think talk so much also for not much use...so...i prefer to keep quiet now...and use the time to talk to myself, to think, to observe and to appreciate........




its just so great to have u guys beside me...helping me along...i will...
sorry, and thank you :D

[ this is how it all started* ]

Monday, July 30, 2007
9:39 PM

im thankful to all u guys...and i will study hard...for you.

[ this is how it all started* ]

Saturday, July 21, 2007
2:21 PM

my promos is coming(25th september--3rd octorber) and im jus simply stressed up <*frowning*>...while...no matter what, we still gt to face so many things which we dun wanna encounter...nevermind..hope everyhting freezes here, and stop moving forward...although thr is nothing good happening...

p.s thank you nat!! i love sports woman, and i love to be one too! ha:D

[ this is how it all started* ]

Friday, July 13, 2007
10:48 AM

waoh!! finally i can get access to my blog again..well...interesting! recently many interesting things happened, added colours to my dull life.. im start studying now..no more playing and enjoy life?? not now please....after entered Tj, well so many things have changed and we, are growing up...."the school expect u to know wat to study" this is someone told me during the period of JCTs...it moved me...honestly!

the more i look at my class, the more i love it...although my class has so many ponners, but they are damn interesting people...cool, love to have fun, and most importantly...extremely LAME (to some of them ) haha i have no offence to any of you guys please!! i jus simply enjoy all these!!

Ytd came across another interesting case. i got to know a guy who was my ex sku mates but actually we'v never see each other b4...he transfered away from my sec after sec1, and i joined my sec sku in sec2....so dunno how were we connected, and its kinda of strange that y would i add him on my msn since he said it was i added him...lol...

anyway....im having computing practical now..sitting in the com lab, and suppose to do my programming...nvm...i still like computing although im so lazy at programming...yes i will buck up from NOW on..now please!!

okok...actually just wanna try out whether i can gt access to my blogger ot not cuz b4 this, i cant log in thus no chance to update my blog as well....

okok gtg le...ZAC has been keep making funny noise over thr....another interesting guy!! haha....
will come back in some times....take care!!

[ this is how it all started* ]

Wednesday, June 27, 2007
12:26 PM

i did badly for my JCT,
feeling really upset,but dun wanna say much..
so just wanna thanks those ppl who have been keep encouraging me throughout,
i will really work hard...
and make a difference
for myself...
dun give up on me...
im a idoit...
so i wanna grow up.....

[ this is how it all started* ]

Tuesday, May 29, 2007
4:58 PM

waho finally im back 4 blogging!
well....have been working for the past three days ever since i ended my titan and sports carnival.
DELTA WON! WE WON EVERYTHING OKAY! i was so damn happy, purely joy of happiness.
and
i got SIXTH for titan individual overall. ok lah not bad, but still got to improve!
haha thanks to nat for never fail to encourage me throughout! i love you!
wahaha :D

by the time e sports car finished already like friday afternoon, den 4 plus still gt to rush down to Orchard to work, and continue all the way till sunday!
so i was totally PARALYSED on mon. cannot get out of my bed. and
i got SUN BURN!!
which making me feel damn sad. okay...and cuz of the 3 DAYS BBQ under e sun, i got serious heating also..hmmm is kinda of chinese medical condition.
so...okay lah now,
everything is over, i gt to enjoy my holiday, really!

n my laptop SPOILED! i can't even on it. WT....frustrating man!
im now sitting in the yishun CC e-club to updating my blog...aiyoryor so poor thing.
so considering of buying a new laptop....i saw one today, at harvey norman. not bad...so haha

consideringgggggggggggggggg :P

ok see u...i got somemore works later tis week...i will be like dying by the end of tis week...hehe :P

[ this is how it all started* ]

Sunday, May 13, 2007
8:54 PM

im here to say

ya! tis is my life,it will be how i wanna it to become.....so gonna to face wateva happen to .......hmmm nvm

everyone is falling sick..including me...fever n throat pain...lol.
tj so many stuffs n events going on...lol..my pathetic life....

todae disovered a new song...love is colour blind. nice!

[ this is how it all started* ]

Friday, May 11, 2007
11:20 PM

CRIED, N REALISED.

A CLEARER MIND, N A MATURE HEAD.

NO DOUBT, I HAVE BEEN TOO CHILDISH,
being surrounded blindly, by my own world.
how the world has going on, i may have no idea.
tt shows how stupid i am, n i still enjoy myself so much.

there are much much more, i need to do, i have to do, and i must achieve.
its so sad to see...
n pain.

i don't wish to expirence what i had expirencing today, it wasn't like the end of the world, but the termination of my dream. that makes me hate myself.

for the first time in my life, i doubted myself, i doubted my ability of achieving my goals, which i have never thought of before.

nvm, it was good. making me realised tt life is no longer the same, the sweet northview life ended long ago. for me, i have to face it with a high up head.

Ppl arrounding me are too bright and shiny, making me have no confidence to look at.
at times, ask myself, do i really good at anything???
achievements?? ok...think they are partially rubbish.

wan respect?! earn it yourself.
the world is fair. equal opportunity for everyone. no discrimination.
it only need our own actions. so what am i waiting for??

jus do it!

thanks for carian todae. thanks for your hugges. it made me feel much better.
made me feel that there is someone who still cares. thank u my darling.

o well. no matter admit it or not. the world is like this, cruel...n equality 4 everyone.

sad. lost. blank. pain.

[ this is how it all started* ]

Thursday, May 10, 2007
9:52 PM

yes...its so hard..n making me mentally exhausted...but i just dun wanna to give them up. i have been striving them for so hard, for so long....

as a choir member, we really have a huge task to go...two more concerts to go...with rmbing all the songs..

as a delta titan, except for doing my part well, mus adjust myself to cooperate with e team, not in term of spirit, but also in physical training! i shall nv nv drag my team behind. and breaking the titan records are really chanllenging,it is so chanllenging until i almost have doubts on myself. but i never thinking of quiting titan, im proud to be one of them, n the only question i keep asking myself is "how" "how" and more "how"......can i do it?? one moment of todae's training, i just got so EMO , n started worrying so many things.

as a class rep, i have been doing my part well! i admit it! with NO ANY SINGLE EXCUSE. i wont give ppl all the rubbish excuses or explain to them this is not my faults or that is not my bisnuss (i suddenly forget how to spell bisnuness) wateva shit la! ppl not satisfy with ur jobs tt means u didnt do enough.
so no matter wat, i just dun wan to give up tis job. together with my dearest partner--GORDEN, tgt we can do everything well. With tis promise, we will work hard, yes as what i said earlier......we shall keep all our results at B's and above.
ppl who r able to tk care themselves well, can then take care of others. we also thank 24/07 guys a lot for u all's tolerance to our previous irressponsibilities n thanks for supporting us as well. THANK YOU GUYS!!

so i think i shall end here. im trying to repick up myself as a good , responsible gal,so jia you to myself. n to GORDEN.wahaha n really thanks a lot for those who cares about me, like JUNYI(thr i no need of speech btw us), SANDRA, VANNY, N MANY MANY MORE!! i will be better....hope i will find the strength to push me on for the rest of may n JUne holidae............

GOD BLESS U...E SWEETEST BLOG READER OF MINE! haha :P

[ this is how it all started* ]

Friday, April 27, 2007
10:32 PM

lavender---waiting 4 love

the exhausting feeling is sth tt really mk me suffer....

[ this is how it all started* ]

Thursday, April 26, 2007
9:41 PM

hey im here to blog again.....busy over titan n pw n tests nowadys, no time to blog....titan trainin ok 4 me so far..i hav run almost 20k within tue n thurs training...so tired..still gt so many works to be completed.....haizzz..stressed!!

[ this is how it all started* ]

Sunday, April 15, 2007
1:49 PM

i had no choice but to go back to work again bt pls dun ask me why....sorry 4 tis wil make quite a number of ppl who concern abt me upset..i could promise tt tis time it wont be as etraggrevate as last time..as soon as the thing is completed, i wil stop immediately. sorry to you guys..n also thanks 4 always being thr 4 me...:P

ytd went back to marroitt!! yeah! every1 was surprised of my new hair cut :P
n Joe bought me my belated birthday cake for me--It was Green tea Tiramisu cake!! i love it! thank you! Joe!!
ytd workin wif Obrin at 2nd floor haha relaxin man!! :P

n 4 other things....i got my hair cut recently..into a concave shape..haha have been receiving controvercial opinions a lot..heehee :P

huivon told me something tt day on phone, it was abt hy de...no offence of writing out his name. honestly i feel like being cheated! do u know e feeling of being cheated??? it is so disgusting, hurting , n shameful !! guess he may never feel tt....haiz...except 4 all those, i m numb all over...

i tasted e bitterness of love....getting hurt is jux simply pain n bleeding!!

hmm luky i have my friends thr.....n all of them...:P

[ this is how it all started* ]

Tuesday, April 10, 2007
9:11 PM

say no to no!!!



isn't it high time someone got negative about negativity?
yes it is!!!
look around the world is full of things that accordin to nay-sayers,
should never happened.
"impossible"
"impratical"
"NO"
and yet "yes"
YES continents have been found..
yes straw is being turned into biofuel to power cars.
yes yes yes
wat does it take to turn no into yes???
and,, when the problem seems most insoluble,
when the chanllenge is hardest,
when everyone else is shaking heads,
to say, let's go!!

[ this is how it all started* ]

Monday, April 09, 2007
10:48 PM

haha todae is a totally scrolled up monday!! n i really hate it....lol
e first morning o the week gonna caught cuz of three offences!!! i wanna die liao lah......it was f***ing irritating...the sreamin monkey was a super super eyesight CONTAMINATION to me also!!!! i gt more troubles or the nex few days lor!!

poor jon, hmm i really take pity on him...climbin half way also ganna by a stupid monkey!! lol.....wat's wrong wif them????

lol tml go buy spray to spray back my hair first haha wan me to dye back//?? no way.......at least wont do it 4 them...ha

den preeti they all said i m a problematic kid......lol AM I????

hmmm wanna go zzzzz le....yeah!! good night:P

[ this is how it all started* ]

Wednesday, March 21, 2007
8:05 PM

wahooo..again i come back posting..haha..todae gonna to upload tonnes of pictures i took few days ago....haha..:P

today is wed. ytd was JUNYI b'dae...so...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JUNYI worx!! :)

can you see e candle lights???

17 worx!!!

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Wednesday, March 07, 2007
4:42 PM

wahooooo...green, the trendy colour of 2007, haha spring is coming..so happy!! wat have i been doing for the past 17 days neh???? the answer is "dunno"!! i poning sku de orientation for e nex 2 days, which means my march holiday starts from TODAY!! yeah!! am i sound stupid??!! hehe....

n guys of 24/07 pls take note tt we having a cg outing nex thurs...meeting you guys at city hall MRT station at 11.30, n we will be goin to SAKAE SuSHi!! haha...den those who wanna play pool go ahead after lunch..haha..so expecting..nex time shall collect more class fund, den go out regularly!! loz...y am i talking all those thgy leh???!!!

hmm...feel like go takin a nap b4 afternoon jogging..haha..todae our super Mr Gorden brought us out during lunch time, n then all of us went home then...haha. .wat class is tis man!!..haha...:P

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Wednesday, February 21, 2007
12:24 PM

im havin chem tutorial now...hmm....im thinkinh something actually...different ppl at same age are doing totally different things...exp: at 2o yr old, some r doing part-time job such as teaching in sku while other ppl may jux simply slacking at home, go out shopping...same ppl waiting for NS enlisting, some r luking for sale jobs while others may jux staying at home n playing computer games day by day to live away their lives...same 17,some r hard core in campus,strive for knowledge,while others may simply having a nice chit chat n eating their burgers in air-con mac..hmm...all these make a diffenrent to e world, make a contribution to the different living standard of our world..tt e reason tt how some ppl could live a carefree live while others may have to struggling for their meals....

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Tuesday, February 20, 2007
11:08 PM

happy chinese new year to everyone wor!! i finally come back posting again..cuz hav been workin through e chinese new year holiday..also wanna say a congrats to hv, haha..for some reason anyway...im happy for her! n gt to know a few new colleagues, who are really nice ppl...

first day of new year, i went to meet hv at brother ringo house after my work which finished at 11pm. we chit chat, den play mah jong...gt to know bro ringo's daughter who's called lisa..i onli gt to know her name after i left e house..paiseh...she's friendly n pretty, both of us are korean shows fans!! wahaha..den we talked a lot abt all e korean shows we watched before...haha...really had a nice chat!!

i drank 3 full glasses fo whisky on e rockx...hehe...den in e end got drunk!!
haiz..nex time really should train myself to drink more bah.....
honestly...feeling painfully broken at tt moment..cuz of sth stupid i did.bt nvm le, i will be okz...i will gt over it eventually, hope tt day would come quickly..
luckily i was able to think calmly for these few days, i would restart my life all over again, in sku...my family and my personal life....i wanna to giv my friends e best me, nt making them worrying abt me, n make e ppl ard me feel secure, n confident to me...

feel tt im getting more n more low-profile..hehe....indeed not suitable for u, its a big contrast anyway. so im not expectin anything surprising to happen to me....instead jux to live my life quietly, without disturbance....

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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
11:58 PM

blue V'Dae......i hav no idea....im like a idoit, being played ard...so idoitic!! and so, i will let it go withOUT regrets....without tears...without heavy sigh....cuz..it is not worthy!

alowing myself to float in the air, is not a wise decision.....regaining control over myself is the only resolution....haiz....being upset & disappointed....dun ask me why, cuz i oso cant explain why.....

[ this is how it all started* ]

Saturday, February 10, 2007
12:45 AM

<>

if u dun wan others know tt u r lying, u must then hang on to it.....no matter how heartbroken it is......tt is loV3! n so i must....have to......continue.... lying to.....

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12:27 AM

today got back my O's results. hmm...i ranked 5th position...haiz...lousy position for me...hehe then gt overall 7 A's, 2 B's.....okay bah..nt 2 bad.
tired le...gtg slp le...bb :-)

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Monday, February 05, 2007
11:40 PM

ah gong dun be sad,okay?? cheer up & believe in urself tt u will do well nex time de....jia you worx!! here wanna tell u sth, hmm.....seriously, u really gt to sacrifice something in order to achieve something ELSE which is more important, this is called "Opportunity Cost" in H1 Economy! haha..kz...since u know tt u will be feeling so bad for nt doing ur exam well, then do something to it, dun jux leave it thr, n trying to ignore it....okayZ?!! orelse u will only end up upseting urself evenmore de...frankly saying,i personally think tt studying in poly is actually more challenging than studying in Jc..in many ways..i believe u know tt as well...so jux hope tt u will continue on on the RIGHT path, e rest of two yrs r NOT long lor, so do treasure them well, n fully utilize it,erm....rmb tis,"a successful person is someone who can live his live prondly n without any regrets!" i forgot taken from where de le, bt i do like tis sentence very much.....so hope tt u could also live ur life with no regrets,n stay truly happy everyday!! :P

so in ending, wish u to have an enjoyable holiday worx!!! :)

okz..im tired now le,today nthing much happpen la..haha..morning presented our class english ski to judgers...haha..so funny...i was acting an old lady crossing e road, den mus face e traffic light walk...i walked walked,den suddenly found tt the traffic light was NOT facing me,how am i going to walk. n then stop without seeing e colour of e light??!!!

in e end, i mus TRY my Best to walk in front of the traffic light, which made me almost reached e edge of e stage, jux in order to see e LIGHT!!! haiz....yingxiao ah!!! then we took tonnes of pictures....haha..all damn funny de... nex time i receive e pics, will post them in my blog...haha....
kz..gtg le...again midnight liao...on WHICH DAY can i go to bed BEFORE 11??????

haiz..so tired!! bye bye lor..good nightZ....:P

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1:38 AM

yawN***** 1.40am!! jux finished watching a new Korean series, waha...full series finished liao! nice nice...thr is one sentence saying tt, dun go into e grape yard plantation with somebody in the season of harvesting, or u will fall in love with him/her.....aiya, tis sentence said in mandairn is nicer..haha...

today off work at 6pm, then went to far east plaza work work, brought one beaUTifuL NECklace....nex time wil go again with Hui von to buy somemore clothes...haha......

by e way, Hui von was nt feeling well today, think was she over-exhausted liao...nv rest well, den everyday go work, after all she is still young,different from those captians, or supervisors...so stil need to rest well....anyway,really Hope tt she will recover quickly!!

over e weekend, injured my feet& legs cuz of workin, think is time to change my shoes le, it is suffering for me!! loL....mus change id nex time....den stil ask me to buy skirt, wahhh...i gonna bankrupcy liao...haha....
shall find a time go queensway & clementi to walk ard....

i wanna watch "ONCE IN A SUMMER" !! is thr any1 who is free to give me a company?????? haiz....cant wait for it liao....ha..

gtg sleep liao....or else cant wake up lor...ha nitEzzz...:)

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Friday, February 02, 2007
10:16 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY / HAPPY B'DAY / HAPPY B'DAY/
HE BIN!!!!
ALL E BEST IN WATEVA U DO...& TAKE CARE ALWAYS!!

our class captain's ball tis afternoon was really GREAT!! im so proud of CG 24/07...let me intro my team members first bah..shall rmb them 4eva de...
Leader: WeiXiong
Members:Jonathan
Matin
Ryan
Crystal
Celesta
Sandra
hmm..did i miss out someone??? thr should be eight ppl altgt de..nvm..nex time i will add on when i recall it...

haha.thr were altgt 4 matches,our results: 1.won
2.draw
3.loss
4.won
nt sure about the actual score, bt sadly we were nt qualified for e semi-final..bt NVM, we did our best, & we r proud of ourselves!! YEAH!!then in one of e matches, i was asked to be e person who catch e ball..OMG! like hell..im so short, n i cant even touch e ball AT ALL...it was so EMBARRASSING!! hiaz...who ask i cant grow taller...so regretted tt i didnt drink loz milk when i was a kid!! hehe....feel so sorry about it!! hehe....hopefully we will win all e way to end de..haha..this coming weekend gt work,full day work..gt money lor! haha...:P

[ this is how it all started* ]

Tuesday, January 30, 2007
10:15 PM

by the way, todae Sandra and Mervyn taught me how to play Canon...waho..so happy!! here a BiGG "THANk YoU" TO them for teaching me...i found i really love to see ppl playing piano...haha...:P

& todae, i didnt keep my promise with God, so how neh???
& my MSN MEssenger refuse to work 4 me le..so recently cannot go online chat..den sandra still say good somemore cuz if i dun chat on9, i will be sleeping early n can go to sku e nex day!! wahaha...wat theory is this miss Sandra wang??
hehe..okay..since u all do everything 4 my goods, i shall listen to u guys de worx.really wanna say "thanks" to everyone in CG 24/07 cuz they are really GREAT!

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10:03 PM

im such a bad gal..HaiZzzz...so sad!!
i was late for sku AGAIN tis mornin, and the worst thigy was i kena caught by DM....wahoooo...hoRAyyy!!then he askes me to report him tml at 7.20 sharp sharp....which may seems so difficult for me...OMGGG!! bt.....nvm lah, im used to it liao....sounds im so hopeless.....

then Jon & weixiong were absent again, so our english fair ski was postponed to nex mon..another HOrAY!! HAHaa, at least i wont so fast den become an old lady liao...ha..:P

then PE, we ran 2.4 todae..i gt second....haha...althought its stil very very e sLOW!! MUS TRAIN MORE! still hestating whether i should join e ROAD RUN in feb!!! any advice fro u guys?? then Jonathan ran soooooo fast!! waaahhh....cool lor..jux recover fro sickness,den can run so fast!! if i were him, i will thank god even if i only can roll on e floor....hahaha....so laME!!

todae gt to sleep early cuz tml mus early wake up....sian nah!! haha...tml my ah gong de exam, so here wish him good luck& all e best worx! ah gong, yAo jia yOu hor! jux now msg u, wanna tell u tt e breeze frm east coast park also wanna wish u good luck de, too bad u never reply my msg...

okay la, i shall end up here...bye bye la...:P
nitEzzzz...

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Monday, January 29, 2007
10:38 PM

todae Jonathan and Weixiong were absent as one is suffering high fever, the othr one is struggling wif sth...ha..the word i dunno how to spell, so jux write it as sth bah!! anyway,hope that they could get well soon, and take care worx!!

hmm..im thinking if i fsting wholeheartedly for a wish for 5 days, will God answer me the prayer? or rather my question?? there are so many doubts in my heart which have started making me feel restless...my heart has no where to rest, and not even a single thing for me to lean again....so if i say, i will start fsting from now, which is 10.40pm on mon, and lasting for five days, could i get the answer i wish to hear?? DOUBT!!
bt no matter how e outcome will be, i will still do it as i believe in fate. started now.....hehe...hang on worx!!

well, talk abt some sku stuffs happened todae. today had my first economy test,it was totally blurred and i seriously dunno wat to right...n also suddenly realised tt i have been left far behind. i have been too playful already. its time to clear up mmy mind le...haha

the rest of the sub such as computing, math, i still can understand de, jux lazy to do homework...i am A BAD GAL!! who could save me neh?!!! haiz....save myself bah...:(

GP period we rehearsed our ski. it was so fun! Ryan is definitely a tian cai!! our ski would not have been completed without him. so down here, wanna say a "thank you" to Ryan and of course, all the CG24/07 ppl. you guys are so great!! n so united!! i love my cg!! :P okay, come back to e ski, i wil be acting an old lady crossing the road, then walk halfway, the traffic light turns red, n im stucked in e middle of the road, and at tt moment, a SUPERMAN appears to save me....haha....OLD LADY!! i wonder how come everywhr i all play e part of acting old lady neh?!!! one is enough....hehe

at night was choir practise...i went thr by 6pm, hoohoo...late by almost two hours...cuz gt sth urgent to do..so...haha..no choice de!! the practise quite okay la, we all talked a lot wif those senoirs, n i was also mis-thought by some ppl as 1 of e senoirs..ooooo...how can it be man??!!! jux jkjk....haha :D

waaahohooo..my post todae is soooo long, n i really shall ends up here le...haha...

[ this is how it all started* ]

Sunday, January 28, 2007
8:06 PM

jux reached home, back from work...tired!!
so nothing much to say..hmm...dunno wat im thinking everyday...:P

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Friday, January 26, 2007
11:34 PM

today staying at home, revising my econ, plus im nt feeling well, so slept away almost half of the day. Haiz...tml got work at nine..actually wanted to wait for his call, bt in e end, he also nv call back...so... sad! :(
bt nvm la,things haven been settled down completely, n nothing is confirmed yet..haiz..dun wanna talk le... :(
sat...see you!

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12:54 AM

wah..jux came back from Tempinese..went to watch movie wif ah gong & hui von. Hv went to JB todae, den brought me sth so interesting worx..so went to meet her after sku which is about 6 plus. We all went to Mac for dinner& also chit chat for a while til 7 plus. then feeling bored, gave ah gong a call. haha...so paiseh woke him up la, ppl over thr sleeping, n we all here talkin nonsense...:P
haha i should have thank him for nt scolding me when disturbing his sweet dream!! haha....
so 9 plus, three of us went to watchthe japanese show "the LOFT" . think should b a scary ghost show, bt the thing ended up like nobody understand wat it is talking abt. haha...a show directed by a failure director yah!! :P seriously we dun understand a single piece of the story, went thr play play onli. then tis hui von today also took e wrong medicine, kept MOLESTING me!! nex time i shd hav called POLICEMAN liao!! then tgt wif ah gong, bully ppl.....!! dun worry , i will take my revenge NEX TIME, which will nt be far away de. hahaha...wait horx!!

so now is damn tired,ah gong also gong gong de, haven been totally wake up...haha...poor ah gong neh!!

okay...ends up here first bah...wish everyone have a good night! bye bye...:P

Labels: tonITEzzzZZZ

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Thursday, January 25, 2007
11:07 AM

im at sku hub now, surfin e net tgt wif sandra, weixiong, celesta and anavil.while, later stil gt so mai lessons to go...sian neh...
nex tue is our english fair ski audition...hope tt we will do well....
our class is really filled wif talented ppl & CG24/07 is e BEST!! chEERS!!

[ this is how it all started* ]

Monday, January 22, 2007
10:02 PM

so stupid...im so stupid!

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9:09 PM

this is a photo we took wif our poor Ryan on 19th of Jan...which happened to be a lucky day for him...okok..Ryan mus take care worx...
see our CG24 so united!! i LOVE tis pic! so nice...
let me intro my classmates to u guys bah!
from left to right: Jonathan, Mervyn, Anavil, Weixiong, Celesta, me and Sandra.

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7:59 PM

monday, a new startin of a wk,happy day!
i cant deny tt i hav a feeling for u,bt i cant do anything more than tt...so many uncertainies, n therefore, im nt sure..what should i do..& where shall i put my heart at...everything happened too fast. if tis causes any confusions to u,im sorry abt it...hmm..friends?

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Sunday, January 21, 2007
7:36 PM

here is one of my favourite song...hope u wil enjoy it....

歌曲:Jesse McCartney - Because You Live


Staring out at the rain, with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer,
somewhere I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know
Because you live, and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live girl, my world has twice as many stars in the sky
It's all right I survived
I'm alive again
Cuz of you made it through every storm
What is life what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel,
somewhere
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly looking in your eyes
Because you live, and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
when nobody else can help
Because you live girl (you live) my world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live
Because you live, there's a reason why,
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always
Because you live, and breathe can help)
Because you live girl, my world(my world) has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live girl,(cuz you live) my world has everything
I need to survive,
Because you live,
I live
I live

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1:23 AM

honestly, i felt sad now..hmm..a bit disappointed, upset, n e scattering of my heart. hm....jux forget it! nothing has been started yet, wat im imagine??!! its so scary..i dun wanna think about it. let nature goes its own way bah!

today went to met hui von after her work, we went to Bugis had our dinner n walk walk ard e bugis street...well..saw a lot of things..it was really fun!! haha..i love it...then acco her go marriot cash out, n then departed at Orchard MRT, went home. hmm....nex time den meet up again bah..todae cannt stay too late cuz she gt work at 9am tml...let her hav a good rest bah! see i so good!! haha...good night lor...:P

time now is 1.30am, i cant sleep, dunno waiting 4 wat...aiya...crystal faster go sleep bah...after wake up, stil gt to study hard! well...start my life all over again bah...bt i stil wondering, is it true? is it true??i wish it could be, bt also know tt it isn's the time....so i really dunno how...i feel e great uncertainty pondering in my heart, n yet, i can do nothing to smooth it back or calm it down...let god decides! its a joy to talking to him...tt all i wanna say today.

[ this is how it all started* ]

Tuesday, January 16, 2007
2:57 AM

Hello everyone! A great Happy New Year to everybody! after almost one year, i have finally re-update my blog which i almost forgot everything about it, eg, e address, my user name, and my password!!! But fortunately, haha...with God's blessing, i saved my dearing blog...

okok..well..I am now studying at Temasek Junoir College which is a truly wonderful college for me. I could easily get everything used to it, and i have made many many new and good friends so far. Days by days, Jc life is going on the track, i sometimes feel that im living in a dream, a dream that seems so uncertain to me. Occasionally, i may even doubt myself, is that the real life im having now? Here im nt saying that i dun like my current life or anything else, oppositively, i wholeheartedly enjoy my life and love my college.

well......my class now is 24/07. With God's blessing, my class is filled up with abundant talented pupils who are either good at sports, or performing Arts such as dancing, or choir. There are even two guys who can do Beat boxing rather nice. They are cool, really!! They are really fantastic ppl. I love my CG (24/07). Of course, my CG tutor is also a nice teacher who is also our computing teacher.

talking about my subjects and studies,hmm....all are quite okay for me. i 've taken those subs i really interested in, and most of the studies works are independent work, which is very suitable for myself, from my personal pt of view.

well..tis is only the start of JC1, things that are unexpectable may still come out unexpectably, so just live my everyday life fruitfully, and enjoy everything.

btw, i still wanna to mention that the choir practise sometimes make me feel very bored!!haha..hopefully i could get used to it ASAP!!

the time now is 3.10. 16th of jan.2007.
my first post in year 2007.
just finished chatting with my Ah Gong, as both of us are struggling with our works. So here i wanna say, ah gong,jia you, jia you....
A ZA A ZA Fighting!!!
6am i will give u a morning call..haha....:P
okay..ends up here first. see you soon!
btw: our CG blog gonna come out soon, pls visit it after it comes out.that will be a very interesting blog.....!!


okay...May God bless you!

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Saturday, May 27, 2006
3:55 PM

finally, i finished my mid year exam...needless to say, my results were damn lousy and i was really upset abt it. but one thing i felt satisfied about was my project won a bronze award in the national SYSF competition. haha...happy happy!! okay..tt all...im now applying for the DSA of njc, but i dunno whether can anot, hopefully gos bless me tt i will pass the first entry n get a chance to take their exams. i wanna go in, its my dream to go in, i can do it! God bless me pls..

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Sunday, May 14, 2006
11:28 PM

well..after much hesitating, i came back n update my blogger. can say that recently my life has been lyk a shit, a completely mess. i have no mood on my studies, and cuz of my project, i jus couldnt sit in front of my table peacefully and do my mid yr revision. im wondering what e hell im doing...its really a disappointment.

the time now is 11.30pm, jus finished watching a show n yet, my revision has progressed none. then having a bad headache oso which might because of the nap i took earlier. i cannt slp in the day time esp in the afternoon as that will definitely give me a bad headache. tomorrow is bio and chemistry paper, my sixth sense is telling me that i wont do well for it.

finished bathing, i sat down to calm myself down. im now missing someone like a hell, i feel like calling him but lazy to talk, so jus put it aside. wanted to chat wif him on9 but sadly he is not on9 now. erm...i dunno y, jus miss him, dying of hearing his voice. what can i do next?? i dun wan to slp now...totally no mood...

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Monday, May 01, 2006
11:28 AM

Eliz ah..pls lah..kept asking me to update..loz..my life is too boring to write le lah..labour day, public holiiday.ma de exam coming, i have no mood to study..WTF!! i so sad..nvm...struggling over tis peroid i will feel better,..jia you jia you!!

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Wednesday, April 19, 2006
11:05 PM

absent from sku for two days...first was food poisoning, dunno y after eating e KFC, then gonna *** , then e next day, go see doctor, aniway, my stomach has always come out problems recently, think i've already causeing sum damages or disfuntionability liao...cuz of my irregular and poor eating habits. then she asked me to go for a wat check up, to take out sth frm my stomach! eeee...so disgusting....its some sort of mini-operaion bah i think. then now, cannt eat anithing, onli can sit thr and waiting to b dying..haha...recently i gonna abandon my com for about one month plus le, mid yr coming, mus study hard le...ok..no mood write ani more..take care la u guys!!

4E1 roX....

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Monday, April 10, 2006
7:29 PM

well...another monday...nothing much lor..recently not in good mood cuz sth happened! but i still got one thing wanna say>>>> mrs Cry yah, u better bring ur doggie for a shower bah....it is getting dirtier liao...haha....so mani hands have touched it, so r u still going to put it besides ur head while slping?? unhygienic de lah...haha....:P

okokz...tt all....>.<

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Friday, April 07, 2006
9:12 PM

i am seeking for e forgiveness From my heavenly father..
Our God, you bless everyone whose sins u forgive
and wipe away.
You bless them by saying: "you told me your sins without trying to hide them, and now i forgive you."

Before I confess my sins,
my bones felt limp.
and i groaned all day long.
Night and day your hand
weighted heavily on me,
and my strengh was gone
as in the summer heat.

So i confessed my sins, and told them all to you.
I said:"I will tell you the lord
each one of my ssins."
then you forgave me
and took away my guilt.

You said to me,
"i will point out the road
that you should follow.
i will be your teacher
and watch over you.
Don't be stupid
like horses and mules
that must be led with ropes
to make them obey.

All kinds of troubles
will strike the wicked,
but your kindness shields those who trust you, lord.
And so your good people
should celebrate and shout.

We praise you, our mighty lord. You have showered your people with love and forgiveness, Your children will always be there, get ready to serve you. To the kingdom of heavenly father!

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8:48 PM

moody day! First of all, i wanna say sorry to HIM! really sorry abt tt. hmm..i dun wan to explain here, jus hope that u can understand...i didnt mean to blame you, i was jus really angry at tt time upon seeing what he was doing.

many moments of times, i jus feel so unfair, but i dun wan to say anything cuz for me, leader must pay more than her grp members. but i accepted it, doesnt mean there is no limit.....sorry to u guys.....feeling really down....

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Thursday, April 06, 2006
8:49 PM

whenever i am down, you are not there...whenever i need you, i couldn't find you. whenever i talk to you, the thing i will get back is only frowning. i don't know wat happened between us, think is i got some problems. whenever i see you, i will have mood swing, why our relations become so mesirable?? i feel guilty while facing you, i feel weird while talking to you, the only thing i could say is, im fall in love woth you! hope you will understand......

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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
8:45 PM

yoz..yis one is draw by my handsum handsum son-in-law..hardworking n nice guy!! n treasure my daughter loadZ..!! CX..jia YOU!!

E first one..e big big cake, is Eliz gave me de! wahhhh..so touched!! i luv u daughter!! haha...take care if urself n ur By yeh!!

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Tuesday, April 04, 2006
5:14 PM

hmm..todae absent frm sku. im having a fever ..feeling down...:P
miss everyone in sku..esp my mrs cry! haha..:)

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Monday, April 03, 2006
9:31 PM

wah..another mon..todae nothing special, everything is too normal to mention la! now i changed my seat to the last row, haha..sitting besides my ah di and my fake son yeh!! haha...so fun of them! loz...then i always make my ah di disappointed..hmm unpurposely de actually! so i dunno how la, wanna give him a compensation bah, but yet haven gt a chance lah..haha..then jia wei was absent todae, my mrs cry had to seat wif tis Huivon da jie!! haha..another interesting gal!! loz... keke...todae quite slack la..i stayed back until 6.30, then went home wif my laopo..regina yor! n Arron laogong, n leo..n CX n Irwin?! lol i dunno how to spell his name lah! haha...SI cX...bangsai me sia...qi si wo lah!! nvm nvm WO REN!!

OKAY ...tt all bah..tml no physic test yeh!! haha...happy?!! lol..okay gt to go n study la!!

bb lah...missya my mrs cry!! haha...:P

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Saturday, April 01, 2006
8:11 PM

haha..Happy april fool's day!! hor hor...i was FOOLED todae!! haha...todae is sat, a great sat 4 me! woke up at almost ten, then took a bath, n reached northpoint at 11.55 to meet sham, cuz i would be meeting her at 12. then tis kind miss, trying to test my patience, arrived at 12.20...waolao...see i was so patient hor! can wait ppl fpr such a long time! i got really frustrated la at e end which made me kept eating food..loz...poorthing sia...then sham told me tt we onli hav to reach jiawei house at one!! WTh..i had really nothing to say liao..then sham n i went to e store, which i 4got wat e name is le, at second level, to buy bag for sham, she bought a new black colour bag...then we processed to jiawei house.

after checking e map, we decided to take 811. heheX...we got on e bus n started chatting n talking crap. haha...then after 10 min, we suddenly realised tt how come e bus was kept circling around onli at yishun area, no little intention to go to khatib..horhor...we dunno la, if e map showed tt 811 can go to naval base primary, we jus sit on e bus n see lor...then within our expectation, e bus went back to interchange again, n e second round, it went to khatib thr...loz...wasting our time sia...in e end, we noe tt we got on e bus at e wrong place...heheX...

reaching jia wei place at around 1.30, jas they all haven even reach neh..hhaaa...so we then sat down n continued chatting....10 min later, e whole gang came...surprisingly i saw RUSSEL!! yeh,....haha...didnt expect he would come..it was onli after e "battle", sham n i then got e conclusion y russel will come..haahaaahaaa...:P

after everyone settled down,we clearly "observe" e beautiful cake!! it was "gud-looking"..haha...a large cake base with fruit topping on top, think gt pineapple, mango, n other fruits with bright colour..yellow, red, green...colourful sia! forget to mention tt e green so sth lyk Kaya, according to lynn...haha..it was kaya lah...but not PURE!! lynn u bluff me!! aniway, i luv e cake...mouth-watering!! dunno who is e main desighner yeh?? Russel lighted up e candles, we made our bdy wishes, n then blowing off e candles..yeh!! we r getting older!! my bdy wishes..u wanna noe wat is tt?? cum i will tell u! keekee....:P

Jiawei then cut e cake,haha..we duuno y he luked so hurry leh...then they kept asking us to eat e fruit first.we then try e fruit, OMG!! u noe wat we tasted?!! WASABI!! OMG!! can you imagine e taste of mixing KAYA n WASABI tgt??!! OMG!! loz..then they still insisted tt thr is no wasabi, it was purely kaya!! YOUR BIG HEAD LAH!! loz..OMG!!

then we ate e base..wahhhh..i tell you e base tasted so nice..fresh n appetitive! it was a little biz warm....FANtastically nice!! eating halfway, they said we cum drink some water, okayz..e drink luks lyk F&N orange, so without think much, we took a bite, immediately after e liquid touched my tougue, we felt sth wrong...OMG!! wat hell was tt....OMG! OMG! they duunno mix wat things tgt n gt e weird taste!! lol....u guys ah..so CREATIVE !! then Russel start adding cream to ar cakes..haha..i n sham luked at them, suspectively..scared of anithing happened!! chee how still keep saying.."wat! u c we all doing nthing lor..relax lah..." loz...ya lor..u all doing nthing, but preparing doing sth!! haha

jas then asked all to take a photo//they all gather behind i n sham, n say "1" "2" "3" OMG! I think u should hav noe what happened next le bah!! haha..our first kiss were given to e " mouth-watering" n "full of cream,kaya n wasabi" cake!!! OMG!! my face n eyes were lyk...sia liao..then my hair becum so messy, lyk someone who jus escaped frm mental hospital!! loz...i dunno how was i luk at tt moment, onli noe tt jas was kept taking pictures n laughing hapPILY hor!! i was then standing thr to clean up my face, n eyes...n hair....out of sudden, another cake bomb came..omg...it was full of topping n wasabi!! my face tis time realy turned "green" liao lor..AHHH...my face ah...<<>>> si russel, u dun think i dunno hor, ur black shirt betrayed u lor...haha...:)
e wasabi all went into my eyes..lol..so spicy..loz...u aiming was so ACCURATE sia!! tears flowing out profusely, cuz of touch...n happy?? of course!!! haahaa......

then we paused 4 a while, everyone seemed calmed down, jiawei they all give us a bottle of water n asked us to wash hand first, we all then guai guai did it as ar hands r so dirty!! loz..it was onli after tt, we faster walked away in case they had sth to do wif e battle of water..haha..sham was standing thr n seconds later, we heard a scream haha..sham ganna soaked by tt milky water...haha...honestly, i felt so lucky tt time ,lucky i went away earlier. so i was jus standing thr n laugh loud..haahaahaa....without think anithing, suddenly, two full cups of F&N oranges plus salt flying towards me. since no time to run away, i was completely soaked out by e disg*** orange colour liquid..OMG!!! okayzz...JIA WEI, u win!! LOZ..hopefully tt is e ending..horhor...still gt ppl say nt fun enough! hor!!

then after tt, we cleaned up e place, unfortunately, i n sham all wear white shirt todae..loz...then we went to jiawei house to wash up... my shirt..loz..dyed to orange colour liao...then ah gong so nice den lent me one..keekee..damn big sia!! haha...after tt, jas, bernice, russel ch they all helped to clean up tt messy place..horhor..so great of u guys...xin ku ni men lah!!:P

after e party, jas n bernice went home, lynn n ch went to tiao qing!! haha...then we, e two victims, slowly walked to np to enjoy e air-con n walked ard for nothing lor..haha...RUSSEL xie xie ni !! HEhe...i think he was e one who left last, haha...in a word, really thx u guys 4 giving me a great bdy party!! i luv it n i really appreciated it so much!! MILLIONS THANKS TO EVERYONE!!

by e way, thx lynn,ch n jiawei for e presents, i lyk them veri much!! tis yr, my bdy of 2006, will be a eternally etched happiness in my memory!! really!! i luv u guys!!

then tml got to finish all my homework lah..now so tired..feel lyk slping now...okay..gtg liao...bye bye!!

****everyone is a blessing frm e heaven of lord****

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Thursday, March 30, 2006
7:06 PM

dunno why i cant paste e bdy cake my daughter gave to me de to my blog..aiyor..those who want to see, pls go visit my sweetie de blog bah (http://tomoyasu-.blogspot.com) i luv tt..it is so nice!!

to my nu er! mammy wont let you down de, i will beat him de..u wait n see hor!! haha...okayz..thanks lor..:P

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5:59 PM

Wahaha....im 17 liao! im becuming 1 yr older, n my wrinkles hav kept appearing on my ungly but adorable face! haha...okay, i have a lot want to say todae! there are so mani which make me dunno start frm whr le. heheX..

before i talked abt my bdy thg, i wanna clearify..i didnt bully my daughter todae, not even a single tickle..neither my gt son, cx..haha...so daughter ya, i told you liao tt person was wilson, u dun believe me yeh?!! haha...u r so precious, how can we two bully u mah?!! right?!! haha....smile always yeh!!


kz..here is starts...firstly, i really have a great day todae. It is an memoriable n definitely unforgettable. All those simple but heart-touching wishes make me feel that im e luckiest person in the world. haha...im grateful for having such a grt bunch of friZ..it is them tt make my tis bdy so unique n exciting to me..hehex..frankly saying, i smile till my face muscle omost get crump lah..i dunno la...hhaa..:P
so here i want to type down their names n really give them sincere thanks for all they've done for me, not onli for todae, bt oso every other moment when i was encountered wif problems, unhappiness n other things.
how should i started?!! okay okay, here it goes, Mrs cry (jasmine), Hai Ting, Bernice, Edward( ex yor!), Chin Xiang (fk son yeh!) , Hui Von, Wei Qing ,Lynn, Chee How, He bIn (didi), Wilson, Chih Yong, Jia Wei, Elizabeth (daughtr), Sheryl, Lee Boon, Jasmine (4E2, sorri i dunno ur surname, keke!) Jia Hui, Migual, Kah kit, Swee kiat, Shamini, Jason Zhang， Arron Poh, Regina Chan, Fadilah , Suaiba, Martin Lim, Max, n mani mani others, pls excuse me due to my poor memory, bt everyone of u guys will hav my deepest blessing frm e heaven of God!!
n of course, i will definitely not forget my dearest bro, he gave me a sweet bdy niteZ, n his present..haha...Thank you, kor! i love all the presents u all gave to me, i will treasure them very well, as they carried our sharing memories! my favourite Marshimaro!! huhu....i luv u , my ex n my son!! haha...so lovely n adorable!! ni men zui shuai lah!! haiting n bernice, thanks to u all, e perfume candle smells so nice, n clip is cute. i love them! hui von, haha...ji xiao wo hor...okok...i luv tt beautiful notebuk which is in my favourite colour. wah...nice!! thankS! n a present which is so creative n touching___ words frm the heaven r passed to me by an angel--dearest Esther! y u everytime make me so touched one de leh?!! even rmb tt i dun like to eat proper meals...wah..so touching!! okok...i luV e present u made for me! last yr, the stones r still fresh (ly-baked) haha in my memory! heehee...thanks so much! last meh?!! okok..my mrs cry, i miss u so much!! ur words made me..hmm..really i have no words to describe le..more than jus simply touching, sincere, n exciting, thr r much much more than those! since u noe my english is poor, so pls kindly pardon me lor..ur words ah, i luv every single of them although e handwriting is a biz biz childish lah...haahaaahaaa.....:) treasuring them is no doubt, n one more thing i wanna say, u guys r GREAT! i have NO even a single regret of noeing U!! 4E1 rawkz..:)

<<>> yeh...i noe liao...so slack no more, start work hard, wasting time no more! e hardworking gal will b back soon hor!!

nono..haha..cannot say "soon", must say "NOW"!!
okay...i gtg le, thanks for everyone , i hav a amazingly surprising n happy bdy. 4E1 will continue work hard, n achieve our goals tgt!!

oo..e most important person i haven give thx to, my dearest beloved MUM!! mummy, thank u for giving birth to me,made me have a chance to take a luk at tis colourful world. thank you for spending ur time on bringing me up these yrs, im so sorry for those troubles i brought to you before. your daughter has grown up, she will not let you down in anithing u expect her to do. I really love you, and daddy so much. wish u and daddy all the best. our heart will always be as close as before though we r living apart now. I wanna to shout out, my parents Are such a pair of amazing couple!! I LOVE YOU!

>>>> God bless .....

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Wednesday, March 29, 2006
7:39 PM

yesterday i nv update cuz too tired to type le. i had a great evening wif my bro..haha...i was really happy!! we first went to *** then he bought a pair of new shoes for me which i lyk so much!! then we had our dinner at Swensen. wahuhu....it was a really delicious, mouth-watering, n tasty meal, i will nv nv 4get abt it. we ordered a lot of things, in a total of 6....haha..2 ppl onli yeh...we were really full after e meal, even lazy to walk to e mrt liao...haha....then my bro sent me home at ard 10 plus...haha...

he went back then n slp as he had to wake up at five nex morning for working!! erm..tiring day for him la i think..aniway...i want to say that...kor..thX for everything n ur present. i had an unforgettable bdy niteZ...wo hen kai xin!! really!! thankS..:P

then todae, 29th of march, its shamani's bdy...i gave her a box of CD..luv songs lai de!! haha...nice songs la i think...hopefully she will lyk tt!!
then todae is oso e last day of my 16 yr old life....im reaching 17 liao...

count down...4 more hours to go...haha..my flowery age...how can i make tis precious flowery age more meaningful??!!! hav to think about it!

i luking forward to grow up, n at e same time, i cannot act childish la animore...haha...im nt childish lah! mus learn to be mature!! aiyor..life..my life.....my colourful life!! haha shen jing bing liao!!

i want to thank my mighty lord, father in e heaven, to give me tis chance to experience tis fantastic and colourful world. i thank you to give a pair of amazing dad n mum....i thank you for giving me a happy life, n most importantly, i thank you to let fate goes its way, and make me v made so mani endearing friZ....of all these, i wont ignore ani of tis....father, you r my lord, you are e king of king,u r worthy to be praised!! Amen!!

thX for reading...tis is my last blog of my 16 life.....

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Sunday, March 26, 2006
6:59 PM

well..tis is my second post todae. i jus feel lyk writing down my story..hmm...actually, i oso dunno how to describe it lah!

i wanna say is i GONNA CRAZY liao!! keep thinking of him this weekend n keep recalling e moments we spent tgt n e funs we had!! OMG...plssss!! how HOW HOWWW!! who can tell me what i should do。。。im totally "mersmerised" !! haha...then he realli doted on me loz...aiyoryor...lyk my bro...kekeX...OMG!! i think im having a crush on him bah! does tt called "lyk"?? i dunno lah..aniway he is nt my mr right which i noe clearly..haha..wait until tis crash pass over bah!!

think i gonna hav a great time tis tue wif my bro!! haha..he is so nice n caring!! OMG....give u a big hug la, ah kor!! God bless tt u wont spend so much money on tt day yor!! haha...by e way, how do u feel now?? feeling better?? mus hav more rest, okayZ?!! get well as soon as possible hor!!! missya..:P

mon gt e math test, tue gt chem mock, im so damn lazy n slack now! i gonna study now... NOW!!

haha..byebye...

7.24pm 26/03

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1:21 AM

wahuhu...im feeling so happY now...haha...jus came back frm work...its 1.30 am now..haha..im nt a guai gal, so late den haven slp....erm..i've had a happY nite..my partner so damn funny!! haha..then did everything, left me gt nthing to do..haha..thank you la partner..made me feel guilty sia!! bt im still veri gud to u lor..i asked e uncle to kept sum food for u hor, in case u hungry after work, in e end nv eat..aiyor..zhen shi de...hurt my heart ya you!! haha..okayZ la..here i wan talk few words abt my tis partner..haha..he is gud luking yor...then luking at him veri comfortable one de lor...then always made me jagg dao myself...bt he doing things really fast, cuz of me todae, den dragged him became much more slower..SORRY!! my partner..haha...pei fu ur speed of doing things n one more thing, his LI QI veri strong...can carry so heavy chairs n everythING!! pei fu pei fu!! aniway...do take care lor..tml still hav to trouble u help me reture shoes!! sorri sorri!! i will compensate you nex time de...:)

then another one lor...oso luk quite nice de, bullying me till siao...stepped onto my foot...waolao...whr gt ppl lyk tt one de lor...haha...u wan play? okayZ..i play wif u ah!! haha...aniway we had aloz fun todae...he very helpful n nice de..helped us do loz of things..then he oso do damn fast de lor...always e champion hor...rash to e first, pei fu u too!! nice guy lah....be careful while u doing thigns la..later hurt urself, dun blame others yor!!

then a sad thing was tt my dear bro fell sick liao...flu?? or headache?? or fever?? bt didnt luk lyk fever...then dun wan take medicine..aiyor...okayZ la bro...mus get well as fast as possible, otherwise, working too hard will make ur situation getting worse...okayZ...mus TAKE CARE yor...tml working outside, dun force urself too much yeh..!! GOd bless u tt u will get better toniteZ...eat more veggies, drink more water, hmmm....kuai kuai hao qi lai!! best wishes to my bro lah!! :P
then bro oso mentioned abt my bdy prresent..erm..dun spend too much money yor, or my heart will pain pain de...erm...u remembered it, is e best present u give me liao...kz...cya bah！！ kambette...>>>>>keke..:)

then my another bro, dunno go whr liao....disappeared lor!! kekeX....todae no chance talked much to u lor...bt u oso mus take care ah....dun drink too much, or ur beloved body will nt function proporly de lah..take care of urself!! all e best to u TOO!!

>> u guys will nv eva be forgotten by me de!!
i will always remember tt thr r such a bunch of nice ppl who'v brought n still bring me happiness, n joy n everything!! tHANK YOU!!!

gonna slp le...tml mus study hard for my test cuming next wk....jia you jia you!!

kz..gonna slp liao...bye bye...guD niteZ...:P

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Saturday, March 25, 2006
9:57 AM

woke up at 6.35 tis morning, feeling lyk going to a morning exercise, so took out a new shirt to wear, dressed up in the darkness..then went out wif my MP3, n get ready to enjoy tis refreshing morning atmosphere! when i luked at e mirror in the lift, i suddenly realised one stupid thing, i wore my shirt inside out!!! OMG OMG... i mus be have get awake...WT....!! loz...stupid la me!! then hurried go home, n changed...haha..after tt, lazy to come out liao..so had a delicious breakfast then, slack slack until now..haha...

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Friday, March 24, 2006
9:37 PM

todae is friday, e end of a week! todae reached home at 2.oo, haha...cuz miss my dear dear doggies mah..haha..

then during e chem period, some of us gt scolding frm teacher, the reason is because of..... erm...i dun wan to say la..i oso dunno how to say la..no mood to talk abt tt le..aniway, we can really see e truth n real characters of other ppl...erm....forget it...

Bio mdm rina taught us about genes, which made me totally lost..haha..i actually oso dunno whether i've caught e ball ant cuz everything she taught i understand, bt still hav a feeling of uncertainty!

after reaching home, haha..had a tasty lunch which i cooked for myself!! fantastic! haha...i luv it!! yeh...

okay..tt all bah....
gtg le..bye bye!

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Thursday, March 23, 2006
7:56 PM

todae is thur, jus finished my A math test, feeling a bit unbelievable still. i cant believe tt i could actually finished e time so smoothly n within such a short time. OMG!! amazing!! haha..cuz i dun think i gt tt capable la..haha....
aniway todae i had a happy day..heeeheee..sitting at e back of e classroom is so " shuang"!! haha...i behaving like a slaker..siao...i noe is bad lah.. im getting more n more slack which i myself start getting worried abt it. It is so stupid but i jus cant stop it!! WT****

another weekend coming..i once again wasted away my precious one wk time....im so guilty n regretted bt yet, i dunno wat to do!!


i have get lose in e dark catastrophy....

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Monday, March 20, 2006
5:33 PM

wahaha....jus came back frm sku..todae skipped my higher MTL again..aiya. feeling so guilty sia..nvm la..who ask me suffered a stomachache again mah! haha...todae is a short day la..morning CME presented my cme group de video <<>> haha..so interesting...bt then paiseh lor, i sadly found that my acting skill was sooo lousy, i really cannot stand wif myself's lor...aiya...damn lousy! heheX..then mr chan said very supporting but he caught no ball in the end, den still need jas n lynn to explain...hmm...quite fun lah in a word,

then e second peroid was physic. guiltily saying tt i nv do my physic hmwk, so i hav to rash rash rash..... surprisingly, i was jus sitting under Mr chan's eyes n doing TWO pieces of work..e other one is Min thu de..then when mr chan saw it, actually his eyes were attracted by my fantastically stupid magnetism field drawing..haha..i drew totally wrong. so he kindly pointed out my errors, it was then he asked me, y i gt two workbks, then i bluffed him say both were mine..hahaha....i was nt purposely de lah..then unbelievably, he believed!!! wahaha...the handwriting of e two books were completely different lor..he standed so near, still could see wrongly??!!!
amazing!! >> haha..maybe he dun wan embarrassed me in front of e class bah!! then e wrost thing is his trust made me feel even more guilty!! loz...then CH , edward they all still sabo me...zhen shi de.....wat mah! wat friz were tt ah??!!!

okokz..haha...todae mr long nv cum to sku...cuz he was on childsick leave which i first heard was " childhood leave" !! wat is tt ah?!!! haha...then mdm tey heard, laugh until lyk siao oready..heeheeeheee....:P
after 2 peroids of math,i then sat thr happily chatting away my last two english periods..haha...needless to say, i nv finish my work lor...so now, e amt of homeworks hav becuming a hill on my table....waolao..stressful sia...haha...

then after sku, chatted wif my pretty daughter..haha..we talked here n thr...so funny hor!! nu er...mus learn to protect urself hor..mummy cannot take care of you for life-long de ah...haha...

then 2 o'clock went for choir practise preparing for tml's prefect dunno wat lah....oo...sec 4 prefects gonna retire liao..kekeX....after tt, loitering around in sku, had a afternoon tea, then went home liao...

tml no triple S,, yeh.....mus gt to do experiments for our SYSF project..hopefully we can win bah! God bless all of us!

ok la..tt all happened todae...gonna to do my works liao..bb

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Sunday, March 19, 2006
12:46 PM

wahuhu...finally cum back frm tt loving place....my bro is right..i was poisoned by tt place liao. haahaa...these few days im keep wondering that why happy moments r always tt short, fast, n unforgettable. whenever i feel really high or relaX, the time duration is so d*** shorT...n in the end, i have to BeAR the pain n bu she to erase it away frm my heart whixh i really dun wish to. I hav a tiring, short, n unsatisfied holiday....frankly speaking, i one more time, wasted away my precious holiday. feeling so guilty n i wish e timE could stoP at yesterday, i, again, find back my joyness...bt tt was fast, n temporary...seconds later, it disappeared! bt i noe tt e our hearts didnt get apart, they r still mi nice, kind caring bros...since i promised tt i will b back soon, then i will keep my promisE!!
okaYz.....i had a happY day yesterday....HiltOn lightened my day...

one thing wan tell u is tt..smiling at ppl could really makes you high....haha...
reality is cruel n competitive,,,,bt im nt afraid...heheX..cuz u r thr to give me supports!!!

lasT bt nt leasT....MAY GOD BLESS YOU!
dedicated to all my friZ,my mRs cry, Zhi quaN (caring bro), DerriCk WOooooo (gud bro), hasan, Max, Alan, Mickey, Alvin...n mani mani more who gave n hav given me help n guide me in everything.....cuz of u guys, make my life so enjoyable and colourful.....

wISH u all haV A niCe daY!! :P

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Thursday, March 16, 2006
10:28 PM

erm....i really dunno wat to do le...i've lose my direction...mani ppl expect a lot frm me, bt it seems lyk i dun have e ability to make others hav faith in me..although they r....it is really a torture for me indeed. with nobody around, nobody help. ppl at our age dun really take things seriously, they keep doing e irresponsible things, n i've kept give them my forgiveness.....Am i so easy to bully or wat...We are all fri, i dun wan to make anione's life difficult or hard, i wont. bt at least, u should noe ur limit..i oso hav my own limit. dun ever excess it, orelse i dunno wat.....

onli few persons can really do research,, then those who suppose to go libraRY, DUN WAN TO GO,,,those who suppose to do wat thing, nv finish..everytime is lyk tis...wat can i say?

then experiment progress oso noe body record, i hav to ask every single one to do...i noe i oso gt fault...
bt pls..i need u guys help, its a team work, cooperation!

there r loz of ways to find information except for net..y can't u jus go library, n simplt flip few pages...
i dun wan to continue sitting in front of my com until 3,4 am n doing e stupid research...i wan systematically .....
i really fed up le...deadline is approaching...it seems lyk nobody even care....
no answering phone,,,handphone nv ans....meetign come late...what else surprise u all still wan to give me??

after sku reopen, everyi getting busy again....no time no time..everytime is e same excuse..in e end..ppl who panick is everyone of us...ppl who get blamed r *****

okok...i dun wan to say le...hope u guys especially those who always late de, watch ur own behavious..i dun wan to say much!!

now i list out:

doing experiments: all members.
record down resluts: Chih Yong
Double check results: Chin Xiang
Report writing: Chee How Chih Yong.


No change! dun give me ani excuse, i dun care whether u r sick or no time, finish ur work first...

I could be very gentle n l***, I oso could be fierce...
Thanks for ur cooperation n understanding!

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Monday, March 13, 2006
6:10 PM

haha..I am so happy..yeh...yesterday actually wan update de lah..
then chat chat until no time write liao..he is a nice guy lah..erm..we hav loz in common..haha..he always chat half way then slp de lor..heheX,...


NT gentleman...!!!

Kz..then todae cx cy lynn ch they all came to my house doing SYSF rpoject, it was fun lor!! PROject did a little lor..haha..no..everyone contributed a loz except for me! sorri lah! hahaX..

then we cooked kim chi bowl?! dunno how to spell la, a fake korea dish for lunch, chee how cooked fried maggie mee for us...it was so tasty!! I LUV that.... for the kim chi bowl, cuz we put too much fen si, and put it in too early oso, in the end, loz fen si all stick to the bottom of the bowl lAH, then the expecting soup became a semi-liquid food....heheX..abiz wat lor..But it tasted fantastic!! it will be amazing if we put mushroom in it....haha.....

after lunch. cx ch la,,they all piggy piggy lor..heheX..jk..wan slp lor...all lazy to do project..aiyoryor..excuse is my house too comfortable to work, then wat e sofa too soft....wat is tt mah!! I noe my house is nice lah, bt we still gt to do work yeh!! heheX..aniway we had a fun time....

afternoon..my junior ate shit lah.....so****** aiyoryor...i cant blame him oso mah, so haha...kick him on his b*** naughty boy sia!!

they left my house at around 5.45
we had a great time todae..yeh!!

tt all bah!! :P

they left my house at around 5.45.....we had a great time tgt!!

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Tuesday, February 28, 2006
8:09 PM

i am in a extrememly bad mood now..feeling down n still feel like crying! erm...no mood to do anithing...n my eyes r painful..

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Saturday, February 25, 2006
7:51 PM

since ....i am lost IN life..its really tiring to think about all those things! i feel more n more stressful...i really scared tt i will b mentAl break up soon...oh my goodness...is thr anione can help me??!! im lost im lost im lost in everything..plSSSS..god...i need ur help!!

my heart is crying. im ruining my own life away..who can stop me from doing all these crazy n stupid things????
who can give me e ans for everything??.

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Thursday, December 29, 2005
8:23 PM

WOH...his Voice is really a amazement!!! so nice....Jesse McCartney!!...

When you wish upon a star
Makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires
Will come to you
If your heart is in your dreams
No request is to extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do
Fate is kind
She brings to those who love the sweet fullfillment of their secret love Oh, Like a boat out of the blue
Fate steps in and see's you through
When you wish upon a star
Your dreams come true
If your heart is in your dreams
No request is to extreme
When you wish upon a star
As dreamers do
Woah, when you wish upon a star
You're dream comes true... mmmm

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2:03 AM

Today IS e emptiest day i've EVer had...sadly no one come help me!!! i cant help feeling MISERABLE n lonely...wat happened to myself????oh my goodness!!! how am i going to manage it!!! it was hard for me....

u promise me tt u r e safest place i can hide, bt i find tt thr is no longer stronger, even nt secure than a colD wall!! i m really upset by it!!!

i wan to cry out, sadly thr is no space for me to even relax...
no mood le....

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1:47 AM

I'd go anywhere for you
Anywhere you asked me to>
I'd do anything for you
Anything you want me to
I'd walk halfway around the world
For just one kiss from you
Far beyond the call of love
The sun, the stars, the moon
As long as your love's there
to lead me
I won't lose my way,
believe me
Even trough the darkest night you know

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Tuesday, December 27, 2005
12:33 PM

Daily newS reporT!!
Graz removes Schwarzenegger name

Mr Schwarzenegger says he wants to end his ties to GrazOfficials in Arnold Schwarzenegger's Austrian hometown of Graz have removed his name from a football stadium in an ongoing row over the US death penalty.
The large metal letters were taken off the arena overnight.
The California governor has said he no longer wants to be honoured by Graz, where he has been criticised for denying clemency to a death row inmate.
Former movie star and bodybuilder Arnold Schwarzenegger is one of Austria's most famous sons.
The 15,000-seat arena in Graz has now reportedly reverted to its original name of Liebenau Stadium.
'Ring of honour'
Mr Schwarzenegger refused to use his gubernatorial powers to intervene in the case of Stanley "Tookie" Williams, a former Los Angeles gang leader executed for murder earlier this month.
Graz assembly members condemned Mr Schwarzenegger's support for the death penalty, which is illegal in Austria, and called for the city stadium bearing his name to be renamed.
Mr Schwarzenegger hit back with a letter to Mayor Siegfried Nagl, saying he wished to spare the city's politicians "further concern" by withdrawing their right to use his name for the stadium.
The mayor last week urged him not to cut ties with the city.
Mr Schwarzenegger said he would be returning by post a "ring of honour" the city awarded him in 1999.
A naturalised US citizen, he was elected governor of California in 2003 and has confirmed he will seek re-election next year!!!

aiyOR YOr....just finish undating my frizter..now than come to update my blog...wahoho...e weather now is full of snow-white clouds bt not cloudY!!..e sky is endearing blue, haha i m in a high spirit todaE!!..doz...just received a call frm lynn tt we r nt going to watch movie todae le cuz some of e guys r nt free....next time bah!!...later gonna to revise my chemistry..hor hor hor...mock exam coming lor....okay okay...nothing much le....

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Monday, December 26, 2005
7:14 PM

hellU...today is a memorable DAY..as Tsunami commemoration ceremonies r held in aloz of places. May God bless all e victims n those survivors, hoping them wil hav a better lives!!

I m trapped at home 4 a whole day...it IS BOring!!!! doing m projects, revising physic & erm...i watched e Baby's day out 4 e 4th time...haha...it was sooOOOO FUNNy!!...i LOVE that!!...heheX....later then watch Vertical limit for e second time...haha...i wan to******...

n...i lose my first kiss today leh!!! hee hee.....i was kissed by my doggie, he bited me u noe..it was beri beri painful & he made me injuried!!....i wont let u go de..junior! naughty Boy!!

k..got to go out jogging le...cya!!

time now is seven thirty pm...dunno wat happen to e timing??!!!

god bless!!

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Sunday, December 25, 2005
10:51 PM

i lie awake at night
see things in black and white i've only got you inside my mine you know you have made me blind
i lie awake and pray
that you will look my way i have all this longing in my heart i knew it right from the start oh my pretty pretty boy i want you like i never ever loved no one before you pretty pretty boy of mine
just tell me you love me to oh my pretty pretty boy i need you oh my pretty pretty boy i do
let me inside
make me stay right beside you


i used to write your name
and put it in a frame
and sometime i think i hear you call right from my bedroom wall

you stay a little while
and touch me with your smile and what can i say to make you mine to reach out for you in time

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6:15 PM

yee??? how come the date & time r wrong leh??? nvm...e correct time now is 24th of dec, nine thirty pm.....

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5:56 PM

wahohoho....i have abandoned my this dear blog 4 quite a long time lor...n at e same time i also received aloz complains cuz of tt. So i will repick this blog up & start my life-long stORy!...

I have a great time todae, ya...cuz i cooked X'mas dinner 4 my antie n her family, n wah...it was fantastic!! i nv thk tt i could make e HUGE turkey became edible, in fact,it tasted nice, i think. today is my little mei mie's birthday, we sung bdy song 4 her during e party n she, hor hor...recerived a bicycle n mani mani others bdt presents. me ne...i got 4, haha not bad not bad! even my doggies got 3 gifts leh, by e way i 4get to say, my house has 5 doggies today!!! the entire house is like a zoo or...a puppy store. they r barking all e time n it can b really annoying!!...lucily i get use to it oready or i confirm wil go out of my mind!!

i ate til my stomach pain....wah...this is e first time i find tt i can eat so much leh!!!.....so im now having my rest n typing my blog, later hav to go back AGAIN!!...

here my QQ coming in, n i hav to go le....bye bye....

tonight is SILENT night!!.....

i SAW a beautiful firework just now!! it is great!!

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Saturday, November 12, 2005
5:56 AM

SINce my Mrs cry. STRongly ASK me to update my blog, im here to write a few words as i promise my da tat i going to update sooN!....

although im having a so-call holiday, it really doesnt seem like a holiday..i've never been felt easy n relaxable...im getting more n more stressed up,,,loz of things worry me...well...the wat "stupid" project..i DUN LIKE TAT!...then y i still have to force myself to do it?????!!!..NO choICE!....headache~~~

mY mrS CRY today never come to sku..aiyor wah!,..LEAVe me alone...hehex!..how come e size of e words is soo BIG??!!...

i cannot see my precious metal le..a little bit sad..:(....i miss those people thr, bt as wat we say...everything have to change or been changed after all...4get it!...

one more week to go....wish everyone all e best!..

~~~GOD BLESS~~~

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Tuesday, August 23, 2005
10:50 AM

hahaha..today i didnt get up late leh!..woh~~~miracle lah!..den nothing much happened..stil keep sleeping in class..bt not every period hor!..only during chinese period..then e geo test today was sooo00 easy..hahaha..im not proud hor,its just beri easy lor!.evero1 can get fULL marks de!...tml..woh..stil have a long way to gO!..nvm..slowly walk,i will nv feel tired..ritez??!!...keke:)

tired now..got to sleep le..buai buAi!

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Sunday, August 21, 2005
11:45 AM

IM blessed!..yoz.z.z...god has given me e courage to face n talk to him!..wahaHA...so happY.:).
well...alosz of things happened yesterday.fisrt time..i said "hellu" to him,n he hello back hor..woh..so00 nervous @ tat time!..after tat i felt tat i was beri lucKY!..n.during functioning..woh..have to say thanks to my bro first!.yap..he did help me aloz hor..n he's always been thr helping me!..then..during functioning,he called him to come n helped me oh..although i said dun,bt i did feel very very excited n....i now den realise i started "hua chi" lor...hehe...

k...i think tat is enough lor..cannot talk 2 much abt tat,later e matter will b spread to dunno where lor...!.haha..

by e way..today i changed my number..my new number is 9337 6936.
any problems u have,just contact me!
k...wish vevry1 have a suPUe good weekenD!

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Thursday, August 11, 2005
4:22 PM

woh..holiday over liao...tml going to e carnival liao..feel like staying at home tml leh...cuz of him lah!...should i b working on sun?can any of my daughters tell me?...sunday..my yandao working...bt none of my fri thr..those days im a bit sad lor.especially now!..one thirty already,i cannot sleep..cuz i just find out e gal my yandao like be4 through friendster!..O my GOD!..wat hsould i do....desperate n sadness surround me le..e gal IS chio..n pretty...i thk my yaodao still likes her now...you can go thr n take a look bah!..i didnt add her..bt if u r lucky,then can find it lor..her name..mellisa...long hair wif a pair of big eyes...you guys can actually see alot ppl in friendster who r working wif me now..yandao as well lah...dunno wat else to say le....sad xia....got to off line le...

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Saturday, August 06, 2005
6:40 PM

hapPY bIRthday to SingAPORE!...Woh..next wk holiday de comin hor..can go to sku carnival..then wed can go to marina south 4 another dunno wat carnival lor...fun ah!i took alots lots tests in e passing wk..so samn tired le.make me feel beri sleEp also..dunnO how r my REsults lor..bt sure LOSS MY first PosITion seat le..sad xia!...nvm...work harder n take BAcK MY posITION AT E ENF OF THiS Year bah!..frankly say..working is e oly thing tat can keep ne awake lah.otherwise i wil always feel like sleep once i sit down n pay a listening ear to mY TALKATIVE tEachers...tODAY is fri..no.its sat already..i just realised it..cuz i nv sleep until now mah!dun feel like sleeping actually bt have to work tml,soo...my bro says have to have a gd rest!..later then go sleep le!

dun wan rie alotthis time...i thk tat aLl lah..gooOD NITezzzZZzz to everyone!
GOD BLESS!

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Monday, August 01, 2005
8:40 AM

tODay sun le..boTH gd things n bad things happened iduring this weekend..so i really dunno how to describe my feeling now!..fri i worked in e same group wif my yan dao hor...haha...then we talked a few times.wahaha...so happy lor...bt that is all...he stayed back after e event,n i couldnt c him lor...bt still satisfied already...i really loVE my manager so much cuz he changed my name under my yan dao's group lor...thanks GOD!..tell you hor,my manaer also beri handsome hor..he married already lah..no chances 4 u guys lor...hehe...i now dare to talk to him le!keke...:)

then sat something bad n serious happened,e stupid thing made me cried all e way from my house to hilton when i went to work..i cannot stop crying even i was taking mrt..well...veri paiseh lor...then by e time i reached hilton,i came across yan dao n alot staffs in e car park cuz they were doing house refreshing...my captains were shocked when they saw me...mostly were guys leh...paiseh paiseh lah..bt they veri veri caring de..consoling me so tat i wont b so sad...my bro also said tat if i really cannot make it,i could go home when ever i wanted....i was beri touched tat time...crying until my eyes pain leh...bt anyway...staying in hilton n working made me feel much better n better nnn finally..they made me smile le...soooOoooOOOOOOOOO touCHING,YOU NO?!!!!!!!!!

Anyway i will continue working down thr..n ....haha...you no wat im going to say lor...bb,,

lastly,wish all e best n goood luck to all 3e1 students for their tests next wk!bb")

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Thursday, July 21, 2005
7:39 AM

long time nv update liao..since eliz keep asking me to write..then i have to write porperly lor..haha....good news wan to tel u,i got 2 super good bros leh...they r very caring hor...then my got daddy also very teng wo...every time working down there make me very happy lor...then i also got someone in mind liao..paiseh to say who is tat lor...but yesterday msg e guy make me very sad lor..dun wan mention e detail now...he realllly leh...very handsome lor...this thurs working lah..dunno whether can see him anot...cannot see my bro lah...at least i do ot lor then can see them lah...

recently nv receive any mail from him...actually i can say that i have no more feeling to him already...well...another good news is im going to shift my house le..in sembawang...at 13 floor...got good sight view hor...then my bro asked me whether got sea view anot,i told him...no sea view cuz i not stay in hawaii mah...but got good reservoir view now...haha...lame?...keke...

recently i get to know alot ppl while working....one is now doing national service...he senior mah...so only go there for one week training..then next week he will be back!he also my good bro hor....next time i will show you guys their pic lah...quite good looking lah...remember to come n visit here if u r free hor...okay...bb..

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Saturday, July 16, 2005
9:23 AM

today...friday..i finished my o level chinese oral n listening compre exam..tiring week has passed!mi everyday walk to sku wif eliz...we do have alot of fun bah..rite,eliz?..haha...then next week stil got a lot tests,tomorrom i work e whole day...together wif suiba.hebin n xuemin....i introduce them mah....working together sure have alot fun de....but sadly...tomorrow cannot see my brother n got-daddy...cuz they go outside for catering...cannot see him as well...bt..i will b waiting 4 them to come back after their event...maybe have to wait until 2am plus bah...i dun care lor..cuz...haha..special reasons)....this week passed quite fast.seconds later,july paasses lor...wat should i do ne?....

today mdm rina talked some guang rong shi ji to us...i was quite surorised lah.they are e persons i appreciate..capable . good bah!...we all should learn from them de....cuz 3e1 is e best class,rite?...all 3e1 pupils are capable to do well for their studies...we all should JIA YOU!...

write a lot irrelevant things lah...anyway,hope we all can achieve our 3e1 goals together!...gOOd luCk to everyone....

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Saturday, July 09, 2005
8:16 AM

aiyor.....so dao mei...dunno wat happen to my com lah...my long long diary....suddenly...DISAPPEAR LEH!..sad xia..nvm....no mood to right so much lor...just wan to say i miss matt... so much!...n hopefully i wont be so sleepy next week lah!..good luck to my tests next week although i will not doing well....also...
GOOD lucK TO everyone.....for ur tests!....

yah....HAPPY bIRthday....to HAi tING!.....ENJOY IT bah!

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8:11 AM

wahaha...i finally saw him yesterday!..i waited 4 him until 2am plus,then he finally came back...worthy lor!i also got to no a new guy named Erick,when i first saw him,i thought he was Matt...cuz the way he behaves n e way he talked were really make me think abt him..especially e way he looking @ u..well....but then i no he is not him!....last nite i worked until 2 plus..then i shared cab wif my big big supervisor to go home..he stays in sembawang...haha...

recently i always feel like sleeping leh..actually i dun wan sleep la...you all should be understanding mah! especially my laogong..n jas lah...always tickle me when i am dreaming....you no you've destroyed alot of my "mei meng" leh....sometimes i force myself to keep awake,but realy hard for me lor...i cant keep my eyes open lah!..then fall asleep liao....i quite sad abt that cuz i miss alot things tat teachers taught mah!
hopefully i wont be so sleepy next week lah..those tests holding on next week i sure cannot do well lah,,,,,BUT....hehe..dun b so happy hor....i will work hard de..after this peroid of struggle!keke....

okay...god bless!...

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Wednesday, July 06, 2005
8:00 AM

im so happy n i feel im e luckiest person in e world lor....i finally get in touch wif him liao....hahaha^^may god bless you and me!~~~
im now t sku com lab..then today lynn helped me updated my blog...thank you lor..laogong!..new sku term opened,then i everyday sleep sleep until xiao lah!jasming.....later you got chance to read my blog mah!...hehe....next wek got geo tes,,woh..i remember nothing!..still have no idea lah..lazy to continue writing lah!...bb

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Tuesday, June 28, 2005
6:01 AM

woh...e first day of sku...haha...wat a valuable day,i slept away liao...wasting time ah..hehe...sitting wif eliz so happy lor....she must be very happy if she sees this bah..im now listening the (qian nian zhi lian)..so touching leh...then later go for my hmt lesson...then go to marina bay to having dinner wif my darling!the first week will be beri beri for me lor...cuz i have to complete all my holiday works like english,chinese.bio....alot lah....all haven do yet....not a gd gal lah,my mum said.

i knew a guy from hilton hotel while i was working this holiday...he looks like a japan star n really really handsome lah...its almost alike bah! i hope to see him this weekend lah...should be lor cuz he is manager mah!....

e next half a year wil be veri stressful lor....today alot ppl even eliz yah...gal....said tat jay sucks....aih..so poor lah..mah!...[initial D ]...woh...edison so damn shuai lah...i wacthed alot movies during holiday! SHUANG yah......^^my holiday is so damn shuang!...

my mum is going back lor...wish everyone all e best lah...me gonna to leave for my hmt lesson lah...good luck!

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Wednesday, April 20, 2005
7:30 AM

well..here monday again lor...today talked wif eliz..veri funny lah...then i was shoked....SHOKED there when i heard sth..that 1 i dun wan to talk abt lah..just felt so disappointed n sad n ......{speechless}..
today bio test ah..i made a super stuPID mistake leh...the question ask to explain why the temperature is best working temperature..then i wrote "because that is optimum working temperature"...hahaha..wat a perfect lame answer yah...SAD xian......then chemistry to the calculation until my head explode liao....i tired leh.....helpless......

yesterday chated wif my secondary friend...he asked me when i am going back..he said that he will treat my ice cream if i am back...haha....then you no wat he told me?!..haha...he said his ice cream is made of white sugar and water...then he wll put inside the freezer n finallt...treat me a sugar ice cube which is so-called...."ICE cream"....lame right...hehe...then i made a lot of complaint to him hor...he listened until xian liao....not about my life lah..is abt other haha...personal staff lor....he now very powerful lah..should call him AP student bah...dunno lah....anyway still looking forward to see all my ex-classmates lor.....

tomorrow got geo mock exam...i am here to wish all 3e1 boys n gals...get good results!....n get ready 4 e coming exam.....
GOOD LUCK nn BEst wiSHES!

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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
3:07 PM

well....i am now in com lab n surfing e net of cuz lah...haha...recently feel okay okay bah..sometimes a little bit sad n stressful lah...today nothing much happened lah...actually everyday is the same lor...study,break,eat,go home nnnnn sleep....!
A sAAAD news lor..i fell my summary....wuh wuh...so disapointed..worried also..cuz exam is coming soon lah...nvm lah....forget it!

dunno how is he? he has been changed?!maybe.....just hope that i could go back n meet him as soon as possible bah!this may be only a dream
bah...im still waiting for the day to come true....he said i was stubborn or can say loyal or wat lah...whatever they say..i just dun wan it to be a regret bah!bah!...........

tired liao..g2g..b!..:)

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Sunday, April 10, 2005
9:50 AM

well....today is sat liao...i just came back from city hall cuz i went for the prize giving ceremony ,its abt chinese compo competition lah..quite okay lah..nothing much to say! then went to have dinner wif my dear antie,she treated me KFC lor..hehe...i did eat a lot lor..of cuz she spent alot hor!now very full liao...:)

I chatted wif him for three hours last nite cuz i was in bad mood yesterday.that was a mix of all kind of feelings lah..but after chatting wif him,i felt better n hehe had a good sleep lor...frankly say,he really know me well bah,he knows wat i think n how i feel,tat is wat i need most lor...understanding bah!he has always been a got-bro 4 me n really im very touched cuz of his considerations n thoughtfulness lor...dun misunderstand hor...he is just my close buddy as we have known each other since primary n in same secondary sku for three years...so of cuz we are very close lor....he told me something about him(another hor..)..i could see that he has changed a lot...i cannot tell that kind of feeling...i just feel that he is no longer e guy i no liao,...but no matter how much he changed,i...

he hoped me to go back eariler n we can go out n play together wif all his bro...wah..his brother also my fri lah...i do looking forward to go back lah..we even planned wat we were going to do after 2 years,by e time i go back...woh..i was so happy last night...but tat only a hope bah...a quite far-away wish...waiting to be realised n fulfilled.....i really miss them ALOT!!!

yesterday was my little sister's birthday...hehe...she has grown older liao..so fast yah..she is now in sec2 liao...haha..same level as mine...so diou lian lor....
bu hui lah....!keke...

april came already..exam coming soon lor..wat im going to do???how??when??? where???all these r unknown lah.....
next week still got 2 tests...just wanna say GOOD LUCK to everyone n WORK HARD for u guys examinations!

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Friday, April 01, 2005
8:02 PM

i almost forget my blog usename and password liao...i long time never update mt blog cuz my computer spoiled mah..so xian yah...cannot surf the intenet and chat wif all my laogong n laopo! so sku time is extremely precious to me lor..

i had an really unforgettable birthday!haha...they threw all the chocolate cake at me leh..and i soaked to skin totally...the poorest thing was no one had ever come and helped me leh...then my face was also full of dunno wat mixture lah..fruit juice..cake..bread..sweet..in a word...alll kinds of dessert surrounded me lah..that evil evening yah...i will pay them back de....u guys hor..wait bah!!...haha....

today teacher changed our sitting arrangement.i wonder y they wanted to arrange the class in that way yah....its quite neat...but...dunno wat to say lah...okay okay bah...it doesn't bother me so much anyway...

8th of april is mt dearest sister's birthday! wat should i buy for her as birthday present ne?she is no longer tat kind of smalll small gal liao...so choose a suitable present is really a headache yah..espeially at her age lor...HaPPy Birthday to her first....i still have one more week to think about it.....

term 2 is going topast very fast...im a little bit worry lah espeially for the STUPID physic lah...so damn hard leh....confuse me a lot....worry WORRY.....!!!

today nothing much happened..SYF is coming really soon..i will b quite busy start from this mouth liao...got tuition until 10 plus leh...luckily SYF finishes by the time....i really dunno how to manage my own bussiness now...TIRED, WORRY, CONFUSED, unsecure..n feel SLeepy everyday..hehe....

that all about my life so far...how? do you like this kind of lifestyle????...i think i really need someone to be by my side...help me and protect me n encourage me...

but onething i believe is that everything will eventually pass lor...so..haha..see first bah...maybe or maybe not...

by the way...guys..i will update my blog irregularlly in future...and im now think to change my blog temp.....if you find any nice background..tell me can?...haha..thx lor...

maths tests and mt test are coming..good LUCK to everyone...
bye-bye.....:)

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Saturday, November 20, 2004
10:14 AM

Today i finally went to choir practise liao.....the practise is becoming more n more n more boring....im now deciding to quit lah....a little bit waste time liao....then...toay headache...nt feeling well....so no mood to do anithing....n...the only thing i no is i still miss him so much!!!

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Thursday, November 18, 2004
8:09 AM

erm...now in malaysia...tml cannoy go class party lah....so sad...everyday play play...nothing to rite liao....

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Wednesday, November 17, 2004
12:34 AM

Today...jia wei's birthday...so....HAPPY BIRTHDAY to him lor....14 years old liao....haha...he is becoming older n older lah...keke....
erm.....i always keep thinking abt him recently...i could not stop it.....im really beri beri regret 4 wat i did tat time.....i really wan to c him again n miss him sooo much although he may nv nv know....
im waiting 4 e day......

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Saturday, November 13, 2004
12:05 PM

everyday so xian....nothing to do ah...tml going to TIOMAN in malaysia...haha...go out again lor....go n c my new blog if u r free oh...:)keke..bb lah...
GOD BLESS!!

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Friday, November 12, 2004
4:55 AM

HI...i finally came back from KL liao....this journey is really unforgettable...i went to Kl,JB,Sarawak...n....Malacca.hehe...so many places oh...erm...dun wan write much abt it lah....mi here got a BIG news to anounce..haha....
i creat another new blog...((http://sweet-honey-love.blogspot.com))this one cannot b said as a blog actually lah...it is a collection of poem abt love....haha....if u r free,please kindly pay a VISIT bah...thank you first lah!!!....k.....bb
**********GOD BLESS*******

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Thursday, November 04, 2004
1:13 PM

today...veri tired..i almost walked around the whole singapore lah....all ,my dearest mummy's fault lah...asked me to go here,go there...today nothing much happened....holiday actually quite boring lah..mi lazy to go out..n oso nothing to do at home...im going to Kuala lumpur this week,im so happy cuz can c my dear dear father mah..long time nv c him liao...my mum said tat he looked veri tiring n not as strong as b4 liao cuz his business was beri beri stressful.....oo..my dad so pitiful ah!!...:(..im worry liao.....expecially his health..not veri gd...so....:(:(:(
then...mi oso miss my fris so much...TWO months holiday ah...how to spend this time is still a big big Q in my mind..haha....do u have ani idea..tell me bah...
cuz holiday nothing much happen everiday..so i may not update my blog everiday lah..otherwise..my mum nt allow mi everyday use com 1 de...strange person bah...
keke...bt its ok lah...
g2g liao..bb lor...
by e way..can u rite a testi 4 me in friendster???????thx thx thx lah....i will rite back to u de..haHA.....
GOD BLESS!!!

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Tuesday, October 26, 2004
12:15 PM

tOday is monday...erm...mum came back on this morning...erm...quite happy lah...she brought a lot of things 4 me mah...happy happy lor....then she oso gave me a book..e book ah,so nice lah...i like it so much...inside got a lot of present words,like"a bold attemp is half success","a man's fortune is own by his own hands","compete wif time,u will have e hope to win".......still got mani mani mani lah....i like it....sooooooo muCH...waHAHAHA.....tml is my turn 4 e "brain of NVSS"...i dunnoe whether i wan to go anot....still hesitating loh...cuz i still have to go polyclinic 4 check up,so????...dunno liao...mi really wan try e competition,quite funny i think..so.....******
then..Today....we all walked around n brought lots of food..woalo...so nice lah....u no..my mum wan eat Mcda....hehe...unbelievable lah cuz she nv eat tat kind of fast food as she thinks tat is called "rubbish food",mi sometimes agree her view lah,cuz quite ture i think...haHAha....bt mi full oreaddy lah,so i promised myself lor....tml accompany her to go n eeAT bah!!
erm...tonitez im going to share my bigBIG BIGbed wif my dear DEAR mum lor...haha.....dunno wat is going to happen tml...just face my future wif a bright smile bah! g2g n sleEPP liao...bb lah!!..:)
GOD BLESS!!!

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Sunday, October 24, 2004
1:54 PM

Wahaha....my mum is coming back lah...happy?dunno leh cuz she always nag nag 1 de...now feeling so gd,hahaha...exam finish liao...im so happy...erm...mi results mah,quite ok lah,u wan i tell u mah,....i scare later i tell ppl,they will come n zou wo leh...bt..nvm lah...my brother wan know mah,then tell lor...erm....english(overall):63..low bah...literature:63..haha..luckily i won't take lit next year or im going to die liao...chinese:82...should above 90 de,i think...Home-econ:40.5/50....dunno convert to 100 is wat lah...Art:72...should higher than 75 de..cuz i chose e wrong topic lah...history:75..okok lah...science:81..ermm....cuz higher than ch..hehehe...then Maths:94.5..okok bah...dunno mi average is wat lah..dun care oready...keke..i no im going to have a gd gd holiday lah...
i think my mum n dad must b beri happy bah...ch will b beri beri beri sad lah...sori lah...ch...mi is unpurposely de lah..hehe...this weekend all stay at home..lazy to go out liao...this morning went to church,everything remains same,so nothing much to ay abt my weekend...just now after e heavy downpour,woliao...my

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Wednesday, October 20, 2004
8:15 AM

Haha......exam finally finish liao...going to have a gd rest le.mi these days veri lazy to update my blog cuz a lot of things happened suddenly..so.....jian liang jian liang lah!!
todaY i nv go to sch....went to clinic to check up my ear lor....my ear ah...painful lah..dunno what is e problem...so have to go n c doctor!!...then afternoon,cherina told me some of my results..not veri gd lah..i think....my art got beri beri low 1 de...72 onli,then english oso nt gd 1,erm....B? lor....so not happy de...tml we r going to get our papers loh....a little little little bit nervous...my position surely drop down de....sad sad lor......
Recently ne..i find a thing beri funny de....i always meet him wherever i go...haha...quite interesting lor..tat time i went to northpoint,saw him at e 1st floor...then today i went to clinic..oso met him,hehe....in a word....always c him lor....keke...DUN misunderstand ah...i've onli known him 4 few months mah...so dun have tat kind of feeling 1 lah...
feel beri beri xian now...nothing to do lah...if u have some ideas tat can make me bacome busy...tell me faster leh....thx thx thx liao.....
k....no more to write lah...tml going to sch to face e <<<<>>>>>,,have a nice day loh!!!gd luck!
GOD BLESS!!

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Thursday, September 30, 2004
9:25 AM

hey...everyone....once again,long time nv update liao.....recently reaaly no mood 1 de...so ...lazy mah...and i almost go crazy liao...i think after english exam i will go abck to normal liao....so haha u guys dun worry about me ah!!!just wan telll u al ah....erm......i will not update my blog until exam over....so after exam...u all can come n visit my blog again loh!!!!
k...g2g lah...erm..aniway GOOD LUCK TO ALLL OF U and be happy 4evea!!!!
bb loh...
God bless!!!

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Saturday, September 25, 2004
8:36 AM

Hey!!mi ah,long time nv update liao....haha,lazy n no mood n busy mah.....today is really a bloody blue friday.....got unreasonable scolding from a unreasonable person...aiyor...so hopeless....u dun misunderstand ah...i meantat person hopeless lah,im not saying miself ah,im still hopeful n energetic de,i still got a lot lot things to do ah...tat 1 ah,dun wan mention e stupid ppl liao...i dun wan waste my energy on such a ******** person!
then PE did nothing mah,no mood. so chatted wif cherina long long time...more than 2 periods liao..we were talking abt my CCA loh...i m still hesitating whether i should quit my choir anot....she asked me to join band...each of them all have their benefits de...choir,my interest since i was veri veri young....band mah,try those new challenges n meet new friends...bt e practice times so many....choir one time onli mah....dunno how....if u got ani idea...pls told me loh,can???thx first ah....!!
today sch end beri early one de..so went to library...all computers were being used....2 bad loh..after walked around,then came back liao....later i want to go thr again loh....haha....i still dunno how to do art leh..research wat ah....my mind is so damn empty...havent do my revision yet....always feel sad sad one de.....wif no reason lah!!
u guys who got some lame or "stupid" jokes,telll me leh....spread happiness mah!!!haha.....
k...stop here liao......dunno wat im going to do next.....erm....bye!
&&God..no one can ever replace u in my faithful heart&&

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Wednesday, September 22, 2004
10:01 AM

Hehe....every1 ah....mi long time nv update liao...cuz no mood n lazy mah.....those past days,so stressful de...everyday study study de ...recently beri sad de...one cuz i really miss him so much...i found i havent 4get him de...mayb tat was true de...u guys stil dunno who is tat,rite??aiya....tell u loh...u all dunno 1 de lah...in another part of e earth,named leizheng de....erm.....$$$$ him so much de....
yesterday i was so damn unlucky de..i failed my compo ah...it was really badly done....extremely badly done ah...i really despair lah..erm....loss confidence 4 my exam liao.....dun wan mention lah!! :(
today ht so funny lah....wolao....this gal ah....HUA CHI lah...hehe paiseh oh...bt she really is mah....then..after sch,we discussed abt her photo frame..haha..she havent done yet leh....must b hurry loh...then i got an idea--make the shape of it b a man...head,body legs n arms..haha..i thk easy to do lah...hoping she can finish it as soon as possible lah..dun got scolding lah..aniway best wishes to her lo!!
oh..guys..im going to creat a new one..bt this 1 will still keep...e new 1 is for my own poem onli...i will put all e poems i rite on thr n u all can read loh....this 1 will still here..so dun 4get to come n visit ah!!
k....g2g liao....these days got alot tests,so....GOOD LUCK to all of u guys loh!!
haha....GOD BLESS!!!

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Saturday, September 18, 2004
10:55 AM

ha...haha....hahahaha....this is e second post today lah.e first one i wrote in sch library,tat time still no mood one de cuz still got choir practise mah,now dun wan go thr lah cuz everytime so boring,wan quitleh.....bt still hesitating!now in library,haha..on9 i hr plus already lah...today mah...same...wolao ah..e cherina ah....now her art becoming better n better lah..haha..congratulations oh...u no y?all because of me mah...she absorbs my wise n get so high high 1 de,keke....aniway im quite happi to c this....then pe ah...play badminton n sang jay's songs wif eliz n sheryl n leiyan....haha...tat 1 jie kou...so nice...i like it so much...then science period...mdm rina taught us so fast...wolao.....cannot
follow her so sleep loh,bt i was not fall asleep lah,onli yawned n yawned n yawned there.mdm lau's period...hehe...surely didn't wan listen de..so wrote my journal lah.....keke....not onli me leh...min thu oso ah...haha....paiseh...sabo him lah!..haiting so gd leh....answered all e lit questions....i was TOTALLY confused n didn't understand wat e teacher n e poem talking abt....no interest de..this time...lit sure get low low mark de lah..aiyor...dun care lah....then today went to choir practise 1 hr late...n so unlucky...when i was suppose to go up,was caught by ms thomas...wolao.....sure got scolding mah.....bt because i was veri honest n told her i was going to choir tat time bt not break...hehe..c im a gd girl oh....keke...then...now ah,feel so stressful lah..exam coming,my mind so bloody messy,dunno wat n how to do e thing....ah!!!answerless de lah!!!
k loh....got to go liao.....bb loh...tml sat...my plan is still empty de.....erm.....now should take time to think abt it lah....!
bye!
praise e LORD!!

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6:06 AM

haha....after camp ah....pain ah.....veri tired oso....long time nv update liao......nothing much happened.....exam is coming ....so stressful lah..so of cox no mood rite loh.....k..g2g liao...bb

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Monday, September 13, 2004
9:03 AM

erm...today sunday mah..e last day of sept holiday...e exam is coming soon liao...i left two weeks onli liao...still havent do anything...i really dunno wht has happened to me recently....always like ...ai...dun wan say lah....today went to church....still e same ppl do e same things....a bit boring...those days all no mood,so nv update my blog mah!tml going to camp liao....dunno i should go anot...im still hesitating lah!i really expect e decm holiday ah....cuz i got alot things to do mah!! 25th of sept im going to chinese garden wif my super-glue fri n a antie ah,so damn hapi cuz today they just told me de...then 16th of oct,haha...going to sentosa wif aother buddy...so excited abt that!!
im tired..veri tired....really!!!no mood liao...dun wan continue....bb!
GOD BLESS!!!

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Friday, September 10, 2004
12:52 AM

I MISS HIM really really soo much!!i always think tat soo long time past already,i will be able to 4get him,bt im not..im really cannot......no1 else can give me tat feeling except him...我真的真的好想回去找他，那时，我觉得我们好有缘分，真的！那样幸福。昨天我梦到他了，还有最最最好的死党。我们很开心，那种感觉在这里是没有的，但我每次梦到他，都看不见他的脸，只有他的身影和名字，总会因为种种原因而错过，好遗憾啊！DUNno when i could c him again,even jus stand thr n c him quietly....no need talk...everytime i wake up...the sweet dream disappears,it has gone,bt e thing tat left to me is painfulness n sadness....i wan 4get,bt really cannot....ppl told me tat time is e best medicine to 4get something,bt unfortunately tat is not beri useful to me de.....e tat time i went back,i nv c him,even our homes located veri near to each other,bt....i saw every view was soo familiar,jus e person who around me is different! dunno when i can 4get him,mayb some day..mayb nv!i dunno....
erm.......i dun wan continue liao....jus say bb loh!!
MISS U SO MUCH!!leizhen!! :(

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Tuesday, September 07, 2004
10:27 AM

doz.z.z..haha...long time nv update liao...cuz nothing much happened mah!!those days sooo damn boring one lah...even though got second position,still not hapi one..dunno y loh!!do u wan to no wht happened during those days????haha....
sat day oh...went to nanyang jc 4 e chinese prize 1...keke..mayb u dunno wat im talking abt,,bt..nvm lah....then after tat,we ate some food thr loh,den...haha...poor edward lah,cannot eat this,cannot eat tat.....aih!!!222 bad loh...recover faster lah,,so tat can eat anything loh.....luckily i nv break any parts of my body b4!!keke...then..afternoon went to visit my grandfather's friend...she oso veri poor one de.....gor kidney prob mah,so have to go hospital to do wat special treatment(i dunno how to call tat 1.haha..paiseh!!)..she has to go there 3 times every week leh!!i saw e blood vessels in her arm all abmormal already....im sori to c tar...truely!!she must b suffering alot.....she always says tat she cannot get well de...cuz tat kidney problem is a long-lasting disease mah..bt at least i hope she could keep her life last as long as possible de...she is a gd lady!!!..soo sad after visited her!!
then went home n sleep until 7 plus..i think!then went n watched tv programme at abt 11...called xia ri xiang qi.....wolao....e girl ah...extremely chio one de...looks so damn nice ah.....im so jealous bt still hapi to c de....everytime i c her,i will smile wif no reason de...just feel beri pleasant...next time u guys oso go n c loh...remember oh....every sat nite at abt 11...on chanal U DE....dun forget oh!!!
then sunday went to church...haha...met a new brother loh....a common person loh,no special features de lah....after tat,the antie said we would have dinner together on next sat after their practice,,haha.....antie treat us leh...me n weiling...a quite nice gal!!!
then..today ah.....stayed in angmokio library wif my fri whole day loh...until cannot breathe.....from 11....to 6 plus ah.....a bit boring liao....a uncle sat behind us ah....like a sleeping pig ah....wolao..slept from 11 till i left..havent wake up yet leh!!!doz.z.z...... i really got nothing to say liao....
k liao...g2g lah.....bb loh....tml have to go to sku..n c ms soh....haha..got beri important things to do ah!!ahah.....bb kah!!
GOD BLESS!!!

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Saturday, September 04, 2004
10:07 AM

sUdd3nly.......i felt touching when i heard e song......long time nv hear liao.......till now..haven't finish my art...tml how to hand up ah.....otherwise,,i cannot go to sch tml.....so..how ah????answerLESS!!
today literature so damn boring ah...e wat stupid poems mah....e md lau ah...taught me until my head like porridge ah...luckily eliz ah.....helped me understand wat tat strange person talking abt....."sign"really dunno my future about this lit .....surely fail de lah!!!ms soh ah...when u come back ah......(((((((3ndlESs W@!tINgggggg!!!!)))))
bad luck ah...today!!! FEVER LIAO.....SOOO hot n thirsty!!!!
stop here lah...g2g n drink wAT3r liao....
(my emotional life seems soooo bloody empty.....but...i like mah....cuz wat ne????)
<<>>hehe.....^^do u think im abit CRAZY???^^
cuz im fever today!!!!haha.....bb!every1 lah....
&&god......pls forgive me!!!&&

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Friday, September 03, 2004
4:37 PM

friday liao....next week is one week holiday oh.....should i continue hardworking or playing to relax an.????hehe....study of cox mah....or my pama will b going to kill me liao.....long time nv undate liao....dunnno wat to write actually.....nothing much happened those d@ys mah....so!!!
now im in library loh.....doz,z.z. tml im going to nan yang jc liao....sooo hapi ah!!!won silver...!!!!congratulations to edward n ch33 how lah!!!sec 2 camp is coming liao.....hoping have an unforgettable experience loh!!!
g2g liao.....bb!!
GOD BLESS!!!

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Thursday, September 02, 2004
3:27 PM

I am a quite quite happy,n energetic gal lah!!!most of ppl i all like very much as fri lah....except some special 1......dun like ppl too arrogant or selfish or calculative lah.....i can be a gd fri wif every1 if he/she wants to be my fri loh.......im quite pleasant now cuz i got a lot fris mah.....like leiyan,cherina,eliz...,sherly,jessie,CH, CY,MT N Many many many many lah.......im really a lucky gal....HAHA......N GOD always be there wif me....HEHE.....

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Wednesday, September 01, 2004
6:38 AM

!!today ah...tuesday liao....tml is teacher's day mah....so happy teacher's day to all my laoshi ba!!i no nid to go to sch tml yah...so gd.....today mah,nothing much happened...just ONE THING MAH.....keke....
"""""""u no i got 2nd position in my class ah.....keke.....i won cx liao....keke....cx an,dun always tell excuse mah.....hardworking is more important de!!i won't pround de...continue my study is my duty mah...n my english oso ned to be improved ...so we still have time to do the last improvement....keep on going lah..to all of u guys!!!!"""""
CONGRATULATIONS to all stidents whose results have being improved,n expecially the guys in top 10 loh....hoping we will all get gd results in the final examinations!!!!

((im sick liao...headache,dizzy,tired n vo****** liao......,so i have to have a gd rest liao..))
ah....doz.z.z g2g liao.....bb loh!!
GOD BLESS!!
n............................................GOOD LUCK to all of my dear (hehe) friends!!!

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Tuesday, August 31, 2004
6:33 AM

today..monday...a new,fresh day 4 me!today nothing much happened...just the english compo lah....a bit badly done loh...i wrote onli 1 problem and felt tat i haven't finish the compo,not reaaly a complete article,i think...so...i still have to improve de.....even though tat result will be counted in next ca,bt nvm de,,,,do veri well in my final exam is more important de...am i rite????keke......
this morning,,,,im so UNLUCKY LAH.....got up at abt 7.25(of cox late lah),then ..when i got out from my bath room,i felt down on the ground cox there was water there.....ohch!!!so damn pain....de......till now...my left side of my bodi still painful de....then,after sch went home to take my home econ wb mah....u guess wht happen???keke...fell down again lah....same side,same place leh!!!i almost die...u no!tat was the first time i found tat the floor is more comfortable than my large large beedd yah!!!hehe...hoping tonite i wont fall down lah or i will b in hospital tml liao...like edward.....plus an operation for breaking my left arm.....keke....dun wan lah...
EDward came back liao....hehe.....quite hapi lah....he does not lukk like broke his arm mah.....always laugh laugh mah.....joking somemore!!this guy oh....always like tat one de....
N...eliz ah....always laugh like tat.....later xia dao wo leh....keke....see her ;aughing,i wan laugh too leh.....xixi.....this girl ah,,,xiao cha bo de lah!!!
erm...nothing much to rite liao.....g2g!!this wed teacher's day lah......
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY TO ALL MY TEACHERS LOH....like ms son....n many mani mani mani lah!!!
k....stop here lah....88!
GOD BLESS!

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Monday, August 30, 2004
10:08 AM

today...sunday liao....woke up at abt 9.30...loz.z.veri late oh....then,went to mi church loh!e funny speaker nv come leh...so..of cox,boring enarf lah...came back n watched tv until i wanted to vomit.dunno wat happened,e whole day all feel uncomfortable,cannot do anything cuz headache mah....mayb slip alot or eat alot these days....bt i dun think so lah....yesterday nv update my blog,cuz i thought a lot important things mah!!i think be fri wif every1 is gd de....y ppl must against each other ne??everyone all make mistake mah...no nid be so calculative de..she actually is a gd gal de...everyone is a gd person since we were born mah...so...be friendly to others,others will be kind to u,learn to forgive others,u will be oso forgiven.....life is veri veri fair de....so far as i no....i wont hate anyone in my life...be friendly...be quiet....be kind....be hardworking...be concerned....be GOOD!!
really thank leiyan....she let me think alot by using this weekend.....this weekend....might b same to u guys...bt really different to me.....like a turning point ba...i think so.....
guys....we have left one month onli ,exams are coming...do our best n achieve ur own goals!!
THANKS GOD!!

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Saturday, August 28, 2004
5:45 AM

EVEry thing is bloody dark.....am i really a happy,carefree gal???????????sometimes i might be !!!!bt now.....i dunno.......sad cannot express my feeling now.....i really need someone's help bt im confused already.....i know other ppl wont care about me de.....cuz u dun have any relationships with them except u r their classmates......no one really know wht im think about....i feel so empty.......y my life become like this.....i cannot bear anymore liao.....sometimes i even dunno wht can make me happy!!!!!i like a failure,a failure.......a ..............person......
erm........dun no wht im going to do........the more i move,the more i scare.....fearness and loneliness all around me.......dun wan rite liao.....later den cry in library so paiseh de......i'd better go homw n calm down myself......i think.......
bb liao....have a nice weekend!!!u guys!!!!

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5:36 AM

...today.....friday liao....we went to science centre this morning to exhibite our school projects...ah....everyone all did veri well lah....we also saw the inventions of other schools....sooo good loh....we knew we still need to improve a lot lah.....
we chatted a lloonng time ,abt 2 hours mah....i knew what has really happened liao....i eventually knew y my chinese fris all treat me like tat .....im quite sad today....she said i changed a lot....definitely different from e time i just came...tat is tooo bad 4 me...i knew it....bt thanks god,i still have ly,she will always be there wif me de....really thanks her give me those advices n suggestions......i should think clearly in this coming weekend,i dun wan others think im tat kind of person....i know im not.......
one thing idun understand...y ppl always like using each other,there are no real love between ppl n the whole world seems so cold,empty,cruel n ......i dun enjoy using others,i oso dun wan be used by others.....I AM HURT BADLY AND SERIOUSLY..........
my world is dark and cloudy de....no real love around me.......my heart likees a solid ice,i need love and warmness to melt it.......bt whr is it?????i wondering..........
i expect it bt love(whtever wht kind of..) is belonged and controlled by fate.fate.....no fate.....no last de.......im really so sad........extremely sad.........whr is it ah????i ask god hopelessly......
today i cried when i was talking to her...i found i was really a poor gal......looks hapi usually,bt my life semmms really dark,DARK.........

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Friday, August 27, 2004
1:23 PM

...doz......today...quite okay liao.....do nothing....everything is blooooody boring 1 lah....no mood liao....especiallly the lit lah...md law always like tat 1 de....lazy to talk about this ppl liao....today we all went to singapore poly lah....wolao ah...the poly so big 1 de......i ran there n ran ere...too tired to die liao....haha...bt quite happy lah....the guys so funny one like....on our way back...the wat stuuuupid thomas lah....n the fishball lah...wolao...beat my forehead several times...till dizzy liao...haha..jk oh!!den..later...if my results drop down oh,must b their faults de...beat me till crazy mah.....they will be finish tml liao....hahahahahahaha.......waiting patiently ah...u guys!!!!!
tml im going to sc lah,a bit nervous lah...later ppl ask us questions,dunno how to explain,yah,,,,then paiseh liao.....loss my face liao...our sch oso mah...so cannot do tat kind of thing lah....today thursday liao...so fast....holiday is comimg liao...haha.....enjoying myself lah...bt cannot like jiawei one de...this guy ah...a bit crazy liao..i think!!!take his own life as a joke.......aiyor...boy...cannot lah....u still has a llloooooooonnng way to go lah.....waiting another decade year than still can enjoy ur life mah....should be patient lah...boy..should take care de...hehe...dun do e stupid things anymore lah.....still have a lot things to do de....
today ch seemed no hapi one de...dunno wht happen to him lah....dun wan ask him,later he become sader liao....
woh!!!!so late liao...haha....g2g n sleep liao....sweet dream loh.....
GOD BLESS!!!!

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Thursday, August 26, 2004
10:50 AM

haha.....xiao lah.....i come back loh....just now type the stupid sci 1 lah...till blind liao....from 5.30 till now leh!havent finish yet lahh.....im finish liao......my eyes so pain.....
today so bad luck loh....got flu n a bit fever loh..cuz of the damn rain just now.....i was soak to e skin liao......bt its oso my fault mah.....i dun like bring yu sian de....so of cox nv bring lah...sooo hehe...this is punishment loh.....ahhhhh.......still got one more page to type leh......when can finish ah......
duuuuunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnooooooooeeeee!!!!1

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7:48 AM

haiz.z.z!today im sooo busy...from morning till now.....nv stop lah!!ssoooo tired oh!!ALL the sci one lah....later do e wat chart,n then must rerite e llooonnng report....haiz....y everything is our turn ah...soo unfair lah...she nv do anything,wei qin n i have to do e whole things...it should b done by ly de...bt finally...whr is she????still got someone say i do nothing....haiz....y my life so miserable ah....today got most of e CA marks lah...its okay lah,bt surely drop down de loh....e stuuupid ch lah....got soo high on history 4 wat ah???!!!!haiz....alot of them are improving lah...anyway congratulate e ppl whose results r getting better n better loh!
now i fing tat he is becoming cuteeeeeeeer n cuteeeer liao...haha...this guy ah...quite funny one loh......i like (of cox as a fri lah)...keke....today nothing much happened......wolao ah!!!later i have to retype e whole sci report lah.....i finish liao.......WHO CAN COME N HELP ME TO TYPE AH??????????????
answerless loh...of cox...no one can hear what im saying in my heart except........
hoping later i wont b fall aslip loh when im typing e damn********........my goodness lah....
come n help me lah....!!!!!
haiz.....g2g liao...or no time do my work liao......
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god bless!!!

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Wednesday, August 25, 2004
1:25 PM

...long time nv update liao......
Today.....im in a extremely bad mood......i was shocked n hurt....i really dunno wht i should say liao...tat time i almost could not stand n i really wan slap her.....luckily i nv do tat,or.....woh!cannot imagine liao.....
i dun wan ppl misunderstand me or wat....bt y she is always different yah....i explained to her million times already,but she is still like tat!!!i really furious today,they always say i do nothing,and they even wan make me out of e group!!!whr got such irritating person ah!!ssooo bbaaadddd!i no my mark sure veri low 1 de....i dun care abt tat stupid mark...im alive is not because of the stupid marks,my life should be more meaningful,i rather dun stay in this ***group......bt tat is oso my faults,so i wont blame any1 or say anymore explaination.......in a word....this is a super damn experience lah!!!every1 can c im in bad mood today.....alot of them told me......!
i say mah....stay wif them ,i will always be happy,hehe.....after sch,become better lah.....they all so funny lah......e ****** jia wei lah,e mark even higher than me leh!!!i wan suicide lah....hehe...jk liao....anyway congratulation loh......n oso congratulate e damn min thu n eliz lah.....got so high marks at maths n sci.....wolao ah......they all crazy liao....hehe....joking!!!!
edward,so poor ah....this guy ah...always play play 1 de......today nv go n visit him,i even dunno when they went to his house,this afternoon,bloody busy de....rushed e sci project...tml must hand up lah.....oso have to explain to others on tat day(friday) loh......so tired recently!!!
i have to work harder liao....her mark same as mine already liao.....mine must b higher than her de......i just dun allow her higher than mine,just 4 her.....any1 else i dun care....i oso dunno y lah......cannot vs wif edward,tat is tooo bad loh......boring liao.....hehe.....anyway hoping him can get well as soon as possible lah.....
woh...soo late already!!!!havent do my work lah.....g2g liao....
bb loh.....
GOD BLESS!!!!

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Saturday, August 21, 2004
2:20 PM

...today,saturday liao....got up at 6.45 lah...n prepared 4 my test n oral exam....the science 1 ah,badly done lah.....luckily i got finish finally,n e oral ah,really dun wan mention it lah....bt okay okay lah,i think......got nothing to do later.....weekend so xian ah......bt have to study 4 my exam laio....tml still got big walk ah,,,,,wolao ahh, 6.30 have to go sch liao......so early 4 wat ah???cannot go church liao....sooooo bad loh......today he was sooo irresponsible,threw my thing on e table ,then went away,i dun like this king of person lah.....dun wan mention lah.....
k liao....g2g...today no interesting things happen....so......one word
"SUPER XIAN"
BB LIAO.....
god bless.......

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Thursday, August 19, 2004
5:08 PM

shit!shit!shit! y today she is so irritating ah.......i really want to slap her ah!!!
.....i nv c such a person b4........AHHHHHH!
today history test first.....wolao ah.....i write so long 1 n i almost could not finish my ppr liao....bt luckily i finish liao.....hehe.....bt e answer was not as gd as i think lah......cuz dun have time mah......today home econ so funny......we cooked the sh+++++ pie.....maily made by potato loh......i like it......next time ii will cook it for my mum, i think.......home econ is better than dnt liao....i think ...keke...
after sch is e tie&die show rehearsal......haha......really colourful lah.....i dance till xian liao.......tml n monday still got lah......woh......dun wan lah.......
later im going to lib liao.....today my mum crazy liao.....
so early,let me eat my dinner.......AHHHH.......sooooo full ah......
g2g liao.......oh,yes.....today cx came back lah.....congratulation loh!!!
really happy 4 him.......
K liao......still got a lot things to do.....
bb loh!!
GOD BLESS!

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Tuesday, August 17, 2004
4:34 PM

TODAY ah.......so xian lah.........tuesday liao......i no more time already.............should i tell him abt tat?????im hesitating lah......no one can tell me e answer...!!!!!????
Y ppl in my class so violence ah........always beat me.....expecially THE DAMN CHEE HOW LAH.....always helps his dear lao po.......hehe.....later spoil her liao lah........he has become soooooooooo crazy lah,i think this is the power of the love river ba!!!i dun wan b crazy like him lah.....so i should protect myself so tat i will not fall in ****!!!!keke.........
Yesterday oh...so angry......i wrote sssoooo llllooooonnnnnggggg dairy ,then when i turned to next page,com told me can not be display,then i retured to my previous page.......wa lao a.......all my dairy diappeared liao........sooooooooooooo furious tat time.......now i have ti rewrite loh......
AIYOR.......xian liao......g2g n eat liao........
today got ppl treat me,den,.....so happy lah.......
bb
GOD BLESS LOH!!!!

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Monday, August 16, 2004
7:13 PM

just now i wrote soooooo long one .......then all delete liao.......tooooo baaaaaaaaaaaddddddd.......
dun wan write anymore liao....bb

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6:49 PM

haha........today is monday liao.....today past so fast.......tat i haven't finish all my woks ne!!!!!today i have done nothing....im really useless ah........my emotional life is super damn empty.........seems hopeless ah........everyday except study.....nothing else to do liao..........the super DAMN CHEE HOW AH.....ermmmm......always protect his lover.........treating others unfairly........22222222 baaaaaaaadddddddd lah.........this person really blind liao.....fell in love river liao......a really super da ******** ah.....aiyor........ dun wan write liao..... xian liao..... still got a lot thing to do........bb loh!!! GOD BLESS!!!!

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Sunday, August 15, 2004
2:47 PM

today i gto up at abt 7.00 am, AHHHHH!!! so early oh......dunno y i could not fall asleep again liao.......i dreamed i stayed wif *** n keke......so sweet loh.......then.....morning went to my church service,,haha.....today the man oh......super super super funny loh!!!!ALways telling jokes,wht "MP" become the member of public, or "VIP" become a very very irritating person......keke.....this guy ah........so damn interesting lah.......better than my***........
mum is going back liao........happy or sad?????dunno leh........hoping dad can get well as soon as possible lah........
Now doing my his work.......so nan lah.........i really dunnu how to do it?????
"DAMN"!!!!!
TML I HAVE TO go sch.really dun wan lah.......SO XIAN LIAO.......
mum went to library liao.......stay alone so free.
still got alot works to do........when is e end year holidAY AH???
im waiting 4 it lah........
mum still keep nagging......so irritating lah........
Go n do my works lah........i almost cannot breathe liao......
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO heavy n stressful llllllllaaaaaaaaahhh!
LUCKILY today got go to church,make me feel a bit comfotable lah.....
TAT IS the POWER OF GOD!hehe.....
g2g liao........bb loh!!
GOD BLESS!!

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Friday, August 13, 2004
6:02 PM

haha.....today so happy oh........now i think my feeling to *** disappear already,instead of dun wan talk to him.just sit there n c ** is enough already.........
a lot ppl say i have changed????!!!! Actually i oso dunno wan happen to me lah.........
tat is 222222 bad loh!!!!! luckily i got so many gd fris.........i like them very much......
ONE thing i dun understand is that y i have alot fris, i still feel sad.or lonely sometimes ah.......... WHO CAN TELL ME AH?????
DUNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOO LEH!!!!

i hope god will really no wht has happened to me n change me correctly..........
Is there love around me?????!!!!!!!
I REALLY REALLY REALLY dunnnnno................
??????????????
god bless!!!!!

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Thursday, August 12, 2004
7:37 PM

today ah......im going to die liao........how come the history ah....so difficult ah,...... PUZZLE LAH....... i fing i am always quite happy when staying wif them,we have a lot funs......haha.........sssssssssssssso happy oh...... my life is actually quite loving!!!!i like tat...... ppl around me are very friendly and kind and lovely............ hahahahaha.................. k liao....i have to go my tution liao.......... ah......dun wan to go leh..... bt no choose lah....... HAVE A NICE DAT!!!!!!!! GOD BLESS>>>>>>>I LOVE MY DEAR FATHER!!!!!!!!

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Wednesday, August 11, 2004
3:58 PM

Today so xian......test is coming tml lah,bt i still dunno how to do my revision.,....home econ i oso haven't do yet.............everything is same......then...im so jealous leh!!!!
she must be extremely happy!!!!when is my turn ah?????i wondering...........
Anyway im happy 4 her and congratulate her n him!!!!!!i said bitterly................
Hoping tml will be more exciting and unforgettable!!!!!
GOD BLESS!!!!!


i have being tried to give up,bt i no tat is not easy,,,,,,,,,,im hesitating now.....dunno how to do......
the more i sure, the more i can't...........222222222222BAAAAAAADDDD LOH!!!!!

the only thing i no is I LOVE GOD!!!

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Tuesday, August 10, 2004
6:13 PM

today is wht day ah???i even dunno........bt e only thing i no si im going to sch tml lah........
how come the national holiday so short 1 de........longer is better mah.......i really do nothing these days.......my results in term 3 must drop down de..........even though i worry abt it,bt useless mah.......many many many tests are coming,,,,den.........AIH......how ah??????i feel so pointless liao.......
ppl there is ok lah.......i 've not so hated them already like b4........AIYOR!!!!!!!
everyday 4 me is a new begining?!!!dunno lah......just do my best loh........
u oso oh!!!!!!
haven't finish my hw.........i have to stop liao........!!!
K.......HOPING every1 has a nice day loh.......
GOD BLESS!!!!!! I LOVE U.....MY FATHER!!!!

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Friday, August 06, 2004
4:47 PM

I no i have changed.......bt wht have been changed.......where i ammm???????i wondering....bt no one could tell me e answer........
Y PPL IN china so taoyan.......always wan 2 let others get into trouble n such a big trouble could even affect my life n future........i dun understand,YYYYYYY????
Luckily i left there......i hope i could keep away from there 4ever!!!!!
I dun wan to go back anyomre n see the evil n unkind ppl..........im getting hate there ......
th@T is my secret.......no 1 else no........my heart has been hurt badly.......
ssssssssssso......i need to use this holiday to recover slowly.........
wht is waiting 4 me after sch reopen.........Y my life become so strange and the feeling is making me so uncomfortable as i nv feel tat be4............
Fortunately i still got a lot gd fris ,n we can share the happiness n sadness together..........
they r really understanding n thus im quite happy lah.........
today the sch so.......K LAH......
everything will b alright.....i no tat cuz im still a cheerful gal.......
tmr i have to go to sch......bt i even dunno how to sing e song,....ai......2 BAD loh...tat is a gd s
ong........n i do like it lah.......
FINALLY.........
SMILING AT THE BEAUTIFUL WORLD BRAVELY..........
Jesus,my glory father!!!!! I LOVE U so much.........!

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